this ain't no disco
It appears that no matter what I think, no matter how hard I try to articulate it and go back and edit, I am ultimately tongue-tied. It is some sort of cruelty; to allegedly be skilled in regards to language, but have no ultimate idea how to phrase and deliver the message. My thoughts pertaining to the subject matter vary, but at this time I wonder how much of it is a misinterpretation I have unwittingly perpetuated.
This isn't to say that I'm dumb. The above paragraph is not an attempt at humility; I genuinely am baffled at the discontent between myself and others. Consequently, insecurity is oft palpable. Too often, that insecurity is mixed with naivete. This does, unfortunately, lead to thorny situations not readily resolved. Why do I allow people to trample me, to mix me in their bullshit? Why do I struggle to defend what I believe in?
At this point, the road ahead is what matters most. Lately, the solitude I had been readily accepting is starting to bother me again. I suppose the weather change, and this intense desire to get out and be with people are the main factors. Nonetheless, what needs to be done seems fairly clear. Exercise and daily reflections appear to be solid remedies. With the coming of summer but no real financial stability, I will only be limited by my creativity and own shortcomings. The lack of structure is my only concern. The time to hesitate isthrough.
As cliche as it may be, and though it pertains to romantic relationships, the fact is I'm just bummed I don't have someone with which to eat cheese. No matter how glorious future triumphs may be, the current situation is that I don't have anyone to call upon to join me. Clearly, I need a project of some sort. There are some ideas, some clearer than others.
This isn't to say that I'm dumb. The above paragraph is not an attempt at humility; I genuinely am baffled at the discontent between myself and others. Consequently, insecurity is oft palpable. Too often, that insecurity is mixed with naivete. This does, unfortunately, lead to thorny situations not readily resolved. Why do I allow people to trample me, to mix me in their bullshit? Why do I struggle to defend what I believe in?
At this point, the road ahead is what matters most. Lately, the solitude I had been readily accepting is starting to bother me again. I suppose the weather change, and this intense desire to get out and be with people are the main factors. Nonetheless, what needs to be done seems fairly clear. Exercise and daily reflections appear to be solid remedies. With the coming of summer but no real financial stability, I will only be limited by my creativity and own shortcomings. The lack of structure is my only concern. The time to hesitate isthrough.
As cliche as it may be, and though it pertains to romantic relationships, the fact is I'm just bummed I don't have someone with which to eat cheese. No matter how glorious future triumphs may be, the current situation is that I don't have anyone to call upon to join me. Clearly, I need a project of some sort. There are some ideas, some clearer than others.