This Sucks
Today school was cancelled and it wasn't even stormy ggggrrr.....but oh well got to sleep in a little but but guess that doesn't matter since everybody thinks all I do is sleep.I am so fustrated no ne knows it butme and greg are on the rocks with our realtionship he is always working we never have any time for each other anymore.Hardly any time alone and it makes him mad because he thinks I don't want to be with him.Stupid Sharon wont leave us the hell alone always trying to suduce him os something stupid like that.How am I supose to make time for him I have school with which I am really studdling with I have a bunch of people who hate me and I can't help but cry everyday about it except if greg or my friends are around.My Dad is driving me becasue all he does is tell me how much better I have to be and how fat I am.Jesus I know I am a lot bigger than what I used to be but hell I did hit puberty at one point.So I feel like I am not even pretty anymore not that I ever did.I worry all the time that any mnute greg is goin to leave me because I am not good enough for him.It's so damn hard I have started to tik about cutting again there is no other way I hate talking to people it never works.....I don't want to be a unhappy person anymore I WAS doin really good me and greg were great family was better everything WAS.Now it feels like my life is falling apart I am a nervous wreck.I can't explain anything I never can ..so stupid...I WANT TO BE BETTER ....WHY CAN'T I BE BETTER........MELISA