Something about my mood is not quite right.  I can't work out what it is.  It's kind of a mixture of feeling run down and ill (although I'm not particularly) and depressed, although I'm not feeling unhappy per se, just restless and anxious.  I'm feeling unfocused, lethargic and irritable.  It's entirely possible (and perhaps even obvious to those ( Read more... )

Ah yes... just when I start to think my life is terrible and meaningless and I see no point in going on... I hit the 'random journal' button a few times on LJ and am quickly reminded of how extremely lucky and successful and normal I am compared to some of those poor emo wretches.  I'm sure I was never that bad, even at 17.

I'm rereading Jane Eyre ( Read more... )

My phones (home and mobile) have not stopped ringing and beeping since yesterday.  It's bloody typical - just when I want to be left alone everyone suddenly needs to talk to me.  Today is my only day completely alone for weeks, and I won't get another one til next month, so I think I'm allowed to ignore everyone, right?  Why do people get so uppity ( Read more... )

I am in a bit of a grumpy mood today.  Uncharacteristically, it seems to have been caused by the Monday blues.  That and everyone around me being in a grumpy mood too.  And because my staff at work being incapable of counting... or reading...

I guess it's mostly because I had a divine time with Paul this weekend, and compared to that life is just ( Read more... )

Last few days, I have been in a right funny mood.  Alternately apathetic and stupidly horny (over men who are not my boyfriend of course, who lusts after their own boyfriend?), lacking any energy to go out and play, but depressingly restless and fidgety when at home.  Feeling isolated and yet not wanting to see anyone, and unable to concentrate on ( Read more... )

Ever get that thing where a particular song comes on and you suddenly realise everything is going to be alright ( Read more... )

Well the day started off very well and went rapidly downhill for a little while and now I just can't be bothered to do anything.  Fucksake.

You know how sometimes you just wake up and everything's wrong?  Well that was yesterday.  Today I woke up and things were good.  I went for a run and listened to Sash and texted my mother and it's still only 9am.

chewi and thefairmelissa - Happy Birthday for yesterday guys.  Sorry I was in such a crappy mood on your birthdays.

Oh I just hate everything today.  Hate my job, hate this weather, hate popmaster for having questions I don't know the answer to.  Hate my friends (no of course not really, but they're just bundled up into the little ball of hate that is me), hate this flat, hate the fact that I have to leave this flat, hate running, hate not running, hate feeling ( Read more... )

I have the nonspecific blues.  They started about 9pm yesterday, continued through a broken night where I awoke every hour from a rainbow variation of anxiety dreams, and have followed me through to this morning when I just feel inexplicably alone.

Guess it's just that post-holiday anticlimactical thing kicking in.  I should get up, get out, keep