Thoughts of the Sleepless...
It's 3:42 AM and I can't sleep. I've got thoughts and shit running through my head, I think that's what's keeping me awake. Here's the gist of it: my lack of any sort of relationship over the past five-some years of my young-adult life has started actually bugging me. Not to say I've had a high "tolerance" all along, it's always gotten to me. But now, I'm finding myself actually saying "I need a girlfriend." Sad, huh? Desperate, maybe? I'm not sure, you tell me. I've never wanted to come off as desperate, and I never will, and it's not like I'm willing to go so far as saying to anyone "wanna date?" I'm just really not liking that lack of somebody special. What's the deal? Hell if I know. I hate to dig way deep, but possible problems?:
I love Star Wars.
I love comics, superheroes, and the like.
I'm an engineer.
I play video games like it's my job.
I can't shut up about my current interests with everyone, often to make conversation.
I keep realizing I might come off as rude when I meant to kid.
I'm embarrassed to put even more of this shit here, I'll leave it at this.
Yes, I am of the nerd/geek type. Yes, I often use that fact and stuff about that as a humor mechanism, or just to be up-front about my personality. Is that so bad? Even so, am I fated or something to have terrible luck in the realm of the womenfolk? And what happens when (Lord, if) I find somebody who might be interested in me? Am I supposed to hide my interests? I understand watering them down so as not to appear obsessed. Blah!
There's the exposition and the problems. Now comes the solution? Like hell. If there was a solution, I think I'd have been asleep an hour ago. I've played the waiting game way too long, the your-time-will-come crap. I'm 18, going on 19, haven't had a girlfriend. Blah. I'm perfectly willing to meet somebody new and try something out, but how do I do that? I tried at school this first year, no luck. Maybe another two semesters will yield better? I'm a mess.
This kinda helped, I wanna sleep now.
Goodnight, thank you for reading.
-Dan
I love Star Wars.
I love comics, superheroes, and the like.
I'm an engineer.
I play video games like it's my job.
I can't shut up about my current interests with everyone, often to make conversation.
I keep realizing I might come off as rude when I meant to kid.
I'm embarrassed to put even more of this shit here, I'll leave it at this.
Yes, I am of the nerd/geek type. Yes, I often use that fact and stuff about that as a humor mechanism, or just to be up-front about my personality. Is that so bad? Even so, am I fated or something to have terrible luck in the realm of the womenfolk? And what happens when (Lord, if) I find somebody who might be interested in me? Am I supposed to hide my interests? I understand watering them down so as not to appear obsessed. Blah!
There's the exposition and the problems. Now comes the solution? Like hell. If there was a solution, I think I'd have been asleep an hour ago. I've played the waiting game way too long, the your-time-will-come crap. I'm 18, going on 19, haven't had a girlfriend. Blah. I'm perfectly willing to meet somebody new and try something out, but how do I do that? I tried at school this first year, no luck. Maybe another two semesters will yield better? I'm a mess.
This kinda helped, I wanna sleep now.
Goodnight, thank you for reading.
-Dan