Don't want to write
I don't feel like writing. I haven't in a long time. That's why I haven't written in here, really. I've been depressed lately and everything that comes out of my brain is crap. Seriously... the things I think about are scary, and dark. I obsess over tragic, scary, terrible ways people die... I've been thinking a lot about death and it scares me. I'm not suicidal or anything, I could never ever do that. But just these recurrent and incessant thoughts of morbidity that won't let up.
I've had a lot on my mind lately too and its taking its toll... I want a new existence. I want to trade my life in for a better one. I'm just in a funk and hope it goes away soon.
I hate Spokane, there are no jobs here. I miss my family a lot and know I could find something better in Tacoma, but I love Laurel I don't want to leave her. So its just hard right now. I want to find a job dammit, something to keep me occupied.
I think this is all I can come up with to write for today actually.
I've had a lot on my mind lately too and its taking its toll... I want a new existence. I want to trade my life in for a better one. I'm just in a funk and hope it goes away soon.
I hate Spokane, there are no jobs here. I miss my family a lot and know I could find something better in Tacoma, but I love Laurel I don't want to leave her. So its just hard right now. I want to find a job dammit, something to keep me occupied.
I think this is all I can come up with to write for today actually.