I just want us to be happy.(onshot,KaiXUruha)
Title: I just want us to be happy
Author: Mizuki(me)
Theme: III.05 watch
Claim: Kai x Uruha
Pairing(s): Kai x Uruha (Not clear mentions of seme and uke.)
Genre: angst(?)
Ratings: PG(?)
Warnings: It’s kinda angsty/sad. Not beta-readed and English is not my first language, so there can be a few grammatical errors>>;
Written for the challenge comm 4seasons_rabu
Summary:
As long as you are happy, I am happy too.
I am happy when you are happy.
But sometimes…
…Sometimes you are happy, and I am obviously not.
Comments: I seem to be down a lot lately, I guess you can see it in my fics.
At least, this one has a happy end…I hope you like it ^^;(Uruha's pov^^; )
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My finger lightly touch the cold surface of the window.
It’s raining outside. Lately it always seem to rain. But that’s normal for autumn, I guess.
Autumn, the time when the trees let their leaves fall, the time when the animals go out to find food to survive the winter. The time when you see many couples outside, cuddled together, already shopping for Christmas presents.
A single tear slides down my cheek. I wish, I wish we where like those couples too.
Walking outside, close together, shopping for presents. But we aren’t. You don’t even seem to like me more than friends.
I’m okay with that. As long as you are happy, I am happy too.
I am happy when you are happy.
But sometimes…
…Sometimes you are happy, and I am obviously not.
It are those times, that I wish we would be more than friends.
Those times that I wish you loved me back.
Outside, it stopped raining. The sun appearing from behind the clouds again. Enveloping the world in beautiful shades of red. Yeah, autumn….
I silently open the window, allowing the cold breeze to enter the room.
I love the way it smells outside after it rained. After tiny droplets of water cleaned the dirty surface of the earth again.
I inhale the fresh air. A sad smile playing on my lips as I watch children playing outside.
I remember those times. When we where little, we used to play like that.
Not caring about the world, nor all the problems it contains, not caring about irritated people and just enjoying the moment.
The moment from where the sun shines again till our mothers would call us to come home for dinner.
Sometimes we would laugh and run away, hiding for our mothers, not wanting to leave each other just yet.
Enjoying those last few minutes, those last minutes of another happy day, before needing to go home, before needing to go to sleep. But, we didn’t mind back then, did we? Because we knew, the next day would be spend together again. The next day we would meet and play till our mothers called us again.
We would run, and hide, again. It didn’t matter that we knew we could meet the next day, we just wanted to spend each day together as long as possible.
The children outside try it to, to hide for their mothers.
“The cars. Not behind a tree, she’ll find you there for sure…” I whisper, it’s more to directed to myself than to the kids.
Our days as children passed away. And I can’t help but feel, that our days as bests friends did too.
We ended up going to different high schools. And it was only after years, before we met again. Both being grown men already. We ended up in the same band. But our friendship got never the same again.
Sometimes, I wish we could go back to those old times. Playing happily together.
But we can’t.
I sigh soft, leaning on my elbows on the windowsill.
The sun is setting already, the streets are empty now, everyone probably eating dinner.
A lonely figure walks down the street. It stops in front of my apartment building.
I am too caught up in staring at the clear sky to notice the pair of eyes focused on me.
Too caught up to register the fact the person disappeared into the building.
Or to recognize the sound of my door being unlocked.
I don’t notice anything till I feel a pair of strong arms surround me. But I do recognize the person who these arms belong to.
“Don’t cry” You whisper against my back. I turn around, smiling softly as I return the hug. You gently wipe away the remains of tears.
“I love you too” You mutter softly and place a gentle kiss on my lips. And suddenly, I don’t want to go back to those old times anymore, I don’t have to just watch and hope for you to be happy anymore.
Because now I know, I can make you happy. And I can't help but feeling happy too.
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End
Snow patrol really give me inspiration to write...
I hope you liked it^^
Take care~