The End
" When You Left I Convinced Myself It Was The End"
The words I keep hearing over and over again. But its what I needed to hear. There is no more!!! All that's left is friendship!! As hard as the conversation was it was much needed. To be honest last week was the first time since I left Detroit that I told myself that we could still have somethin. Funny right!! You'd think that I would have learned by now!! LOL!!! He told me he's happy right now. And I'm happy that he is!! Where does that leave me?? I'm glad he told me that cause now I can't and won't have any regrets about my decision!!! I finally get it. Of all the things that he said this is what I took it to mean.......
- He wasn't happy being with me
- He didn't love me the way I loved him, in other words someone elses opinion mattered too much
- There's no more love
- He doesn't care about me anymore
- There's no room for me in his life
Patience is a virtue that I don't have. Probably never will. Anyway, My heart was so open even when I thought it was closed!! And that's why things are like this, in other words the reason why I ended up tellin myself there was a possibility of things changing when it wasn't. Sometimes its like when you put a bunch of glue on your hands and stick them together and pull them apart, you get them so far away from each other that you think you're about to have them seperated! Next thing you know they're back together. I take 20 steps forward and get knocked back 40. Its cool though now that I know the reality. I'll be back to where I was in no time. ( I don't wanna be treated like a friend or anything else) I expected to much and wanted to much!! Goodbye!!!!!