Just Some Thoughts
Ok, I'm back, I had to go do some work...lol. Well I'm happy right now!!! I don't miss Michigan! I miss a few people but my mother is not one, hate to admit it, Its the truth anyhow!!! I have a new attitude toward things. Yeah, I have changed. I realized a few more things. For instance, I can't help but keep thinkin about the shit that happened between me and Will but shit, Fuck it!! Ya know u live and learn. Being arond Kelvin has helped me. I decided to have a fuck it I don't care attitude but I should care and just not sweat it. Maybe that's what I'll do. Anyway I called over there and I ended up talkin to him, LMAO, that was a mistake!!! Fucked up my damn mood but shit it only lasted for a minute. Now I realize that we can't be friends, we can't talk and that's that. If he calls I'll say Hi and how are but five minutes is it!!! I hate that things have to be like that!!! I'm thinkin about startin a new journal, this one just seems to have to many bad memories...lol ya know!! I'm good though, I'm doin tha damn thing!! Gettin my shit together. I've decided to fly solo. Besides lately all I've had is infactuations which don't last long!! Anyway enough of all this bullshit!! I'm not that same girl I used to be!! I think this me is better!! Things change some stay the same. I'm learnin how not to depend on anybody for anything. Be yo own bestfriend. When you goin through shit, deal wit it yo self!!! I feel like I can finally fly! I don't need anyone to hold me up!! Yeah, I got tougher!! Some say its all a act but not so.