unsettled and insomniatic
Hello again Livejournal, it's been a while. I guess I've been so distracted, posting tiny comments to Twitter and doing nothing with my life that I haven't had much to talk at length about here. And of course, if I'm forgetting to post, I'm forgetting to check my F-list for new posts. Bet I've missed quite a few things in my absence.
It's currently 3am, and I think the reason I'm still awake tonight is cuz I'm hungry. I didn't really get anything to eat for dinner, except an English muffin with pineapple and honey on it. It was actually quite tasty, but not very filling.
Yesterday I finally fixed a problem - well, DAD fixed the problem I had been trying to fix with my computer, which was glitching. Except now that it's fixed, it's acting more bogged down and sluggish than it was before I mucked it up in the first place. Also, I think I'm too dependant on that machine. When I fiddled with the system and somehow managed to unallocate my hard drive partitions, I felt like someone had stuck their hand in my chest and squished my heart. I still feel bloody ill at ease, even now that it's relatively fixed. Is it possible to feel violated by something you did to yourself? Cuz I kinda feel that way, which is probably not helping the insomnia.
Also not helping the insomnia are the group of people outside chatting at audible conversation volume. It's 3am, gorramit, break up the party!
Been looking for a job, but I'm pretty limited and have had no luck, since everyone and their right foot wants experience to be qualified for anything, and I haven't got that. So I sleep all day, sit in my room all night, avoiding the downstairs because it's so noisy and constricting and makes me antsy.
And the household projects are progressing slowly, but they're progressing. The main bathroom is torn apart. I hate having to use the smaller bathroom. Even with the new shower curtain (which does lessen the claustrophobia a little, being arched out and away from the tub) I still feel like my skin is crawling when the door is shut. And there's no ventilation, so it feels oppressive and stifling after a shower, with all that steam and heat. I can't breathe in there.
So, from what I can sum up of this report, I'm hungry, uneasy, and depressed. Situation normal then. Guess I should try to sleep, eh?
It's currently 3am, and I think the reason I'm still awake tonight is cuz I'm hungry. I didn't really get anything to eat for dinner, except an English muffin with pineapple and honey on it. It was actually quite tasty, but not very filling.
Yesterday I finally fixed a problem - well, DAD fixed the problem I had been trying to fix with my computer, which was glitching. Except now that it's fixed, it's acting more bogged down and sluggish than it was before I mucked it up in the first place. Also, I think I'm too dependant on that machine. When I fiddled with the system and somehow managed to unallocate my hard drive partitions, I felt like someone had stuck their hand in my chest and squished my heart. I still feel bloody ill at ease, even now that it's relatively fixed. Is it possible to feel violated by something you did to yourself? Cuz I kinda feel that way, which is probably not helping the insomnia.
Also not helping the insomnia are the group of people outside chatting at audible conversation volume. It's 3am, gorramit, break up the party!
Been looking for a job, but I'm pretty limited and have had no luck, since everyone and their right foot wants experience to be qualified for anything, and I haven't got that. So I sleep all day, sit in my room all night, avoiding the downstairs because it's so noisy and constricting and makes me antsy.
And the household projects are progressing slowly, but they're progressing. The main bathroom is torn apart. I hate having to use the smaller bathroom. Even with the new shower curtain (which does lessen the claustrophobia a little, being arched out and away from the tub) I still feel like my skin is crawling when the door is shut. And there's no ventilation, so it feels oppressive and stifling after a shower, with all that steam and heat. I can't breathe in there.
So, from what I can sum up of this report, I'm hungry, uneasy, and depressed. Situation normal then. Guess I should try to sleep, eh?