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i got a new journal and this is from it so instead of writing all of this again i just copied and pasted. if you want the address ask me and i'll more than likely give it to you. and remember, this is from yesterday..
it's so weird how you can want something and not want it at the exact same time. (i love paradoxes) but the thing i can't figure out is which one i want more.. to have it or not have it.. that is the question (what a cliche). but the great thing about this predicament is that i'm okay being stuck in the middle b/c i'm happy either way. if you want and don't want something and you get it, you're happy but if you don't, you're happy too. if only life could always be this easy. although this is anything but easy...
did you get all that? ha.. i know.. i like to confuse others and even myself sometimes. but anyways.. not much happened today. went to my three classes and almost fell asleep in each one of them. i actually talked in my media class a lot so that was nice for a change. CI was horrible but that was because none of us had read.. haha. if only the kids could know the whole story.. perhaps, in a few days. then research methods was the same old boring stuff. lunch was interesting and exciting, needless to say. i wont' go into too much detail but i just realized how much i have changed since freshman year. two years ago, i only looked and didn't act but now i can act and not be afraid anymore. go me! then i went to work for a little bit but then left early b/c i'm going to a lot of sessions this week so i don't have to sit at work and stare at the walls. the rest of the night i just stayed in my room and watched tv and try to write a paper. Everwood was great tonight. i saw so much of myself in tonight's episode. i love experiencing flow.. things make sense when i feel it.
and can i just say how glad i am that nothing happened btw. scott and me. he seriously is freaking me out. if a guy ever put so much lovey dovey crap in his away messages about me, i think i would throw up. God only knows what his girlfriend has in her away messages and profile.
not sure i have anything much else to say. oh yeah.. tonight as a study break lisa and i ate pickles with cheese. well at first i was just eating pickles but then she wanted cheese so of course we ate them together.. i didn't really care for it all that much. but i drank tons of pickle juice. jacob ewwwed the whole time but i think it's yummy!
*sidenote* i think i'm going to not even bother with BHC anymore. in the last month i think i have only gone to the thread 1 or 2 times. i just have not much to say about guys and don't have the time to post to everyone right now. but i will still read your journals and try my best to reply to them. i'm still here.. we're just going to have to talk online or through journal comments*
it's so weird how you can want something and not want it at the exact same time. (i love paradoxes) but the thing i can't figure out is which one i want more.. to have it or not have it.. that is the question (what a cliche). but the great thing about this predicament is that i'm okay being stuck in the middle b/c i'm happy either way. if you want and don't want something and you get it, you're happy but if you don't, you're happy too. if only life could always be this easy. although this is anything but easy...
did you get all that? ha.. i know.. i like to confuse others and even myself sometimes. but anyways.. not much happened today. went to my three classes and almost fell asleep in each one of them. i actually talked in my media class a lot so that was nice for a change. CI was horrible but that was because none of us had read.. haha. if only the kids could know the whole story.. perhaps, in a few days. then research methods was the same old boring stuff. lunch was interesting and exciting, needless to say. i wont' go into too much detail but i just realized how much i have changed since freshman year. two years ago, i only looked and didn't act but now i can act and not be afraid anymore. go me! then i went to work for a little bit but then left early b/c i'm going to a lot of sessions this week so i don't have to sit at work and stare at the walls. the rest of the night i just stayed in my room and watched tv and try to write a paper. Everwood was great tonight. i saw so much of myself in tonight's episode. i love experiencing flow.. things make sense when i feel it.
and can i just say how glad i am that nothing happened btw. scott and me. he seriously is freaking me out. if a guy ever put so much lovey dovey crap in his away messages about me, i think i would throw up. God only knows what his girlfriend has in her away messages and profile.
not sure i have anything much else to say. oh yeah.. tonight as a study break lisa and i ate pickles with cheese. well at first i was just eating pickles but then she wanted cheese so of course we ate them together.. i didn't really care for it all that much. but i drank tons of pickle juice. jacob ewwwed the whole time but i think it's yummy!
*sidenote* i think i'm going to not even bother with BHC anymore. in the last month i think i have only gone to the thread 1 or 2 times. i just have not much to say about guys and don't have the time to post to everyone right now. but i will still read your journals and try my best to reply to them. i'm still here.. we're just going to have to talk online or through journal comments*