long time, no update
i'm real sorry for not updating you all of my life in a long time. i have time but when i do have time i am just so emotionally and physically worn out that i simply just don't have the energy to type about my life. but life has been kind of rocky lately. everything is going wonderfully but i found out my grandma has cancer and is doing chemo therapy. it hurts me to know that i can't be there for her and that i'm up here 300 miles away having the time of my life, but i can't think that way. she wants my happiness more than anything and i deserve to give that to her. i just have to be strong and live my life to the fullest.
i have the best friends in the entire world. they amaze me each day and i'm truly blessed to have each one of them in my life. i've been hanging out with some new people this year and they totally add spice to my life. most of them are guys and that is something i have always wanted. the only girls i really keep up with here at school are lisa, michelle, alicia and my roommates. other than that, i only hang out with guys. they're awesome guys and they totally renew my faith in the male species. i don't like any of them and none of them like me and that is a great thing. i love not liking somebody. i mean sure i like two guys and would date them if they asked me but it's nothing like what i felt for scott. not even close. i love not having attachments and the emotional anguish that comes with liking someone. after being completely in love with someone for practically 4 years, it's a good thing to take a step back and be away from that for awhile.
some fun things i have done lately is free bowling with the guys thursday night 11-1.. so much fun! sure i sucked the first game but i honestly didn't care. i was having a blast that my 20 something score didn't bother me.. haha. then last night i went down to see kevin and go to our soccer game against them. we tied which is really good for our team b/c theirs is usually quite good although not last night :P it was such an intense game and i cheered my lungs out. three guys infront of us were laughing at me but i didn't care. stupid guys.. and i think they were speaking polish.. ha! then kevin and i went out to eat and just talked for about 30 minutes b/c we had the place to ourselves. it was so nice and i can't say how much it meant to me that we were able to talk like that, that he was able to tell me what he did. it makes everything i went through totally worth it. and i can't wait til he comes up here to visit me and hang with my friends :D
school is going well. i'm doing all my work and reading which is a change for me. i used to only read what i felt was necessary to pass the tests but now if there is something that is due, i do it and do it all. yay for me! i'm going to drop CI though which breaks my heart b/c i have gotten close to a lot of our freshman, but i'm just not up for doing all the work that is required of us if we aren't supposed to be doing that much work. it's just not fair to me but i'm going to keep in touch with the freshman.. b/c after all they are our kids! :) work is taking a lot of my time these days b/c career week is this week. yesterday jess and i had to do the bulletin board outside the cafeteria.. i think it looks nice if i do say so myself ;) SDB is going awesome and i had a great tour earlier this week. these two girls were from colorado and were really excited about the tour. usually the people move slow but i am a fast walker and they wanted it done soon so we raced through it but i told them everything. and afterwards they thanked me so much and gave me great comments on my review thingy. yay for being a good tour guide!
well i guess that is about it. i actually really like this entry and like how my life is right now. i am so happy and blessed. words could not even begin to describe =)
love and hugs to you all,
kelly