2010
So I'm hoping this will be a great year for me. I have a lot to look forward to. Moving to florida, getting engaged, getting MARRIED. hopefully going back to school, new job. new LIFE!
Every single good memory I have, (besides vacations, of course) every single thing I look back fondly on... every person I've known, every time i drive down a street and get a memory of my childhood... Nearly every memory I have, is HERE. My whole life is HERE. Bad memories are here too, but the good stuff outweights the bad BY FAR.
It's going to be so hard to leave, but I want to go, because I know it's worth it. It's worth it because I've fallen in love with a wonderful amazing man, (brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it) and he is the best person I've ever known. I'm happier with him than I've ever been in my whole life. He will be a good father to nathan. He's already a good father to his own children, and I know he'll be a good father to our child someday if we decide to have a baby.
For 2010, I want to get my life under control. Rely less on less on technology to occupy my time, and to be a better mother/housekeeper/cook. Nathan needs a lot more than I give. Even though I dont abuse or neglect him, I also don't engage him as much as I should. He's a very smart little boy. I need to invest more time in him and help him learn. I'm worried about how this move is going to affect his behavior. He's very sensitive to change, and moving him 800 miles away from every single person he loves is going to turn his world upside down.
I know that having Mike as a father will be a hugly positive impact on him. And getting away from my dad too. He does love dad, but i really dont' like the things he subjects nathan to, and he never follows my rules about ANYTHING. sigh.
I can't wait for Mike to get home. I feel like I'm in a holding pattern. I can't move forward until he gets home, until I move and get set up, find a job and a daycare and all that jazz.
It's gonna be a busy year!
Every single good memory I have, (besides vacations, of course) every single thing I look back fondly on... every person I've known, every time i drive down a street and get a memory of my childhood... Nearly every memory I have, is HERE. My whole life is HERE. Bad memories are here too, but the good stuff outweights the bad BY FAR.
It's going to be so hard to leave, but I want to go, because I know it's worth it. It's worth it because I've fallen in love with a wonderful amazing man, (brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it) and he is the best person I've ever known. I'm happier with him than I've ever been in my whole life. He will be a good father to nathan. He's already a good father to his own children, and I know he'll be a good father to our child someday if we decide to have a baby.
For 2010, I want to get my life under control. Rely less on less on technology to occupy my time, and to be a better mother/housekeeper/cook. Nathan needs a lot more than I give. Even though I dont abuse or neglect him, I also don't engage him as much as I should. He's a very smart little boy. I need to invest more time in him and help him learn. I'm worried about how this move is going to affect his behavior. He's very sensitive to change, and moving him 800 miles away from every single person he loves is going to turn his world upside down.
I know that having Mike as a father will be a hugly positive impact on him. And getting away from my dad too. He does love dad, but i really dont' like the things he subjects nathan to, and he never follows my rules about ANYTHING. sigh.
I can't wait for Mike to get home. I feel like I'm in a holding pattern. I can't move forward until he gets home, until I move and get set up, find a job and a daycare and all that jazz.
It's gonna be a busy year!