Time Flies
I keep meaning to visit more and the days and weeks just zoom right on passed
I think it goes faster the closer we get to the holidays
and the end of the year.
Let's see...
Finished the first chapter of "Back Stories"
Going to send to a proofreader before posting
still deciding if I will post it here and the movie website
or one or the other
This was hard
haven't written proses in a while
wondering if I still have a voice folks will enjoy
It felt great to immerse myself in this world
to surrender to inspiration again
God knows where it comes from
but it keeps happening - I'm grateful it keeps happening
my mind's muscle is remembering how to spin characters & images from the whole cloth of my imagination
it feels good
I think what I love most about writing is the control
I can do it when I want, as much as I want
It's my safe place
which is why I think I could never sell it on a regular basis
Actually I have been writing ALOT lately
There is this guy
he's my muse du jour
actually my muse de l'année
Things and people tend to capture my imagination pretty completely
and it takes a good two years to shake it
(with him maybe less
- he was actually mean to me over coffee, that has help quicken the detachment process)
I'm at the tail end of year number one - I think
wrote two treatments with him in mind
probably not done yet, there's probably more to come
had to get them down on paper just to make brain space for my stuff
damn that pesky inspiration thing
Still seeing that coach
still a bit too woo woo for me
but I'm gonna keep going
as long as I can afford it
looks like I will have a job at least until the end of the year
Movie Update:
I think I found a composer. He's very excited to get started.
I told him he would have to wait until next year.
And I explain that I had tied his hands a bit by pre-selecting a few songs
He was totally cool with everything
I'm looking forward to working with him
I have to shoot a teaser for the film.
It's a tax thing, I need to shoot at least one scene before 2012
I had auditions this past weekend and found this guy
DAMN HE'S HOT!
The Character Tony is supposed to be the looker of the couple
but I never thought I would find a Hottie who is also a Solid actor
Callbacks are hopefully Saturday.
The self-destructive thoughts have subsided alot
I look back at how desperately depressed I was a few months ago
It's a little embarrassing
just a little
because although the all-consuming anxiety of it has lessened
it doesn't make any of what I said any less true
Now I'm just hungry to make this film happen
Will it into reality...