We're All Part Of The Same Sick Little Games (Chapter 1/??)
Title: We're All Part Of The Same Sick Little Games
Pairing: Jalex
POV: Jack
Summary: “I should say I’m enjoying this, I really do. But it’s wrong. 7 years of this, and we still haven’t learned our lesson.”
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone in this fanfic. Honestly. Only the plot line is mine. :) This never happened.
WARNING: inscest, depression, self-harm, lots and lots of bad words.
Chapter 1: “10 years before.”
“I don’t wanna leave New York mom! I have all my friends here. Can’t I just stay here? You can take Lexy!” I whined at my mom who’s already packing for our trip to Baltimore. We’re moving there because my dad had a promotion from his company, and we’re forced to move there whether we like it or not. And I do, obviously, not like it. I glared at my mom who just smiled at me innocently, which made me more annoyed and irritated at the same time.
I’m a fifteen year-old boy who lacks social life and barely made friends. I honestly have no reason to hate the world, but hey, if you were in my place, at an early age you’re confused on your sexuality, it’s fucking frustrating! But I couldn’t really complain because, what do I know? I’m still only a teenager who knows nothing about how the outside-world revolves. I’m trapped inside the walls and arms of my protective family. I’m deprived to explore the beauty and the wonders of the world. Being their youngest son, I understand why they’re all so protective. But sometimes it’s just too much and curiosity takes over my brain, making me break my promises and my parent’s rules. Me, sneaking out, drinking, smoking, etc.. etc..
I flinched a little when I felt a hand grabbed my shoulders. Turning around, I saw Alex shook his head in disapproval, what the hell does he know?! He just wants to move to Baltimore as soon as possible cause his “internet-girlfriend” lives there. What a prick. It’s fucking disgusting.
Thinking about Alex having a girlfriend, made me sick to my guts. He used to be there for me all the time, to help me with bullies, my homework, even at times when I feel like I’m all alone in this world, he was there. WAS. Until he found a lady in his life. And I was left alone again with my thoughts all night.
I missed the late night movies, when we cuddle on my bed and he would tell me stories about his school, football, and how he passed college. I missed those nights when I had a bad dream, I’d scream. Not my mom or dad’s name, but I’d scream Alex’s name, and he’ll come bashing into my bedroom door as soon as he hears me, he would say comforting words and hush me til I stop crying, I just bury my face on his chest while he sing me to sleep. I missed those days when I get beaten up in school, he was there to clean my cuts and he would promise me that everything would get better, that he was always there for me. Where IS he?
On our way to Baltimore.
I sat at the backseat next to Alex who’s sleeping. I turned up the volume of my Ipod so I won’t hear what my parents have to say. They usually fight over the most idiotic things. It’s not even healthy anymore. I’m still waiting for the day this family would fall apart, so I can live with Alex, or my mom. And with that, I close my eyes.
My head snapped up when I felt Alex shuffled a little from where he is, he’s awake and talking on his phone, and probably to his slutty girlfriend.
I rolled my eyes at him and continued to just drown myself in self-pity, along with my music.
I don’t even know why I’m so pissed off at everything, I know in my guts that I want something, I’m still just so clueless.
How do you even want something, and have no idea what it is?
But the way I miss Alex gives me a small hint that it’s something about it. Maybe I’m jealous? I want my big brother to be happy of course, but that doesn’t mean I want him to distance himself to me, we rarely talk, I don’t even see him out of his room anymore. And when I hear his voice, it’s either only if he’s on his phone, or when he’s going out.
Alex used to teach me guitar, back when I was 10 years old, he saved up enough money to buy me an acoustic guitar, back then I have no interest in musical instruments. And Alex forced me to take a step forward and see what I can make out my life, it went all so well and learned so many things from him.
That was then, when Alex used to be my bestfriend. But right now, he's the biggest douche in my life. He's been all pissy and a bit of a push over when he started to go out with that girlfriend of his', what was her name? Layla? Lauren? Lisa? Oh who the fuck cares! She's only dating him because she knows my brother got signed in a contract with a recording company, which could be his big break and he's probably taking me with him since he knows that I play guitar well enough to be in his band.
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Baltimore
The sweet smell of oak trees and grass filled my nose as I step out of the car, grimacing at the house standing proudly in front of me. Imagining what my life would be in the next years as I grow up in this place. Would I make friends? Will I make more enemies? Or would I live alone for the rest of my life in this town?
My mind keep telling me that I really don't care what would happen to me if I started living here. If I would hate it or love it.
But right now, I think I finally came up with my decision, that I, literally, just started to hate this place.
Why? Because, there's a girl standing on the porch, wearing a short shorts exposing her long legs and a gray tank top that matches her green eyes. To be really honest, she's beautiful. Most beautiful person I've laid my eyes on(except for Alex, but that doesn't count).
My adoration simply turned into a scowl, when Alex walked over her and opened his arms to offer that girl a hug, screaming "Lisa!". So that's her name.... Lisa.
Next thing I know, he's kissing that 'Lisa' girl. Ew. That's just fucking disgusting.
Well, I think I already know what life would be like with that Lisa around. And with Alex all over her. I better get ready to gag my intestines out. Dammit.
I'M SORRY IF IT'S NOT WORTH THE WAIT. I don't hate Lisa okay? I just can't think of anyone to be with Alex. Idk.. and Lisa would be a great antagonist here. idek. i still dont know. Haha! So, here's fetus Jacky confused with his sexuality and hates Alex for being a douche but deep inside likes him. Yeah. Idek. Comment? It's not that good, i just tried to squeeze this in my time and college is constantly fucking me up in the arse. I'm so sorry if this wasn't worth the wait. I'll make it up to you though. I still love you though baby! Don't leave me!
Pairing: Jalex
POV: Jack
Summary: “I should say I’m enjoying this, I really do. But it’s wrong. 7 years of this, and we still haven’t learned our lesson.”
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone in this fanfic. Honestly. Only the plot line is mine. :) This never happened.
WARNING: inscest, depression, self-harm, lots and lots of bad words.
Chapter 1: “10 years before.”
“I don’t wanna leave New York mom! I have all my friends here. Can’t I just stay here? You can take Lexy!” I whined at my mom who’s already packing for our trip to Baltimore. We’re moving there because my dad had a promotion from his company, and we’re forced to move there whether we like it or not. And I do, obviously, not like it. I glared at my mom who just smiled at me innocently, which made me more annoyed and irritated at the same time.
I’m a fifteen year-old boy who lacks social life and barely made friends. I honestly have no reason to hate the world, but hey, if you were in my place, at an early age you’re confused on your sexuality, it’s fucking frustrating! But I couldn’t really complain because, what do I know? I’m still only a teenager who knows nothing about how the outside-world revolves. I’m trapped inside the walls and arms of my protective family. I’m deprived to explore the beauty and the wonders of the world. Being their youngest son, I understand why they’re all so protective. But sometimes it’s just too much and curiosity takes over my brain, making me break my promises and my parent’s rules. Me, sneaking out, drinking, smoking, etc.. etc..
I flinched a little when I felt a hand grabbed my shoulders. Turning around, I saw Alex shook his head in disapproval, what the hell does he know?! He just wants to move to Baltimore as soon as possible cause his “internet-girlfriend” lives there. What a prick. It’s fucking disgusting.
Thinking about Alex having a girlfriend, made me sick to my guts. He used to be there for me all the time, to help me with bullies, my homework, even at times when I feel like I’m all alone in this world, he was there. WAS. Until he found a lady in his life. And I was left alone again with my thoughts all night.
I missed the late night movies, when we cuddle on my bed and he would tell me stories about his school, football, and how he passed college. I missed those nights when I had a bad dream, I’d scream. Not my mom or dad’s name, but I’d scream Alex’s name, and he’ll come bashing into my bedroom door as soon as he hears me, he would say comforting words and hush me til I stop crying, I just bury my face on his chest while he sing me to sleep. I missed those days when I get beaten up in school, he was there to clean my cuts and he would promise me that everything would get better, that he was always there for me. Where IS he?
On our way to Baltimore.
I sat at the backseat next to Alex who’s sleeping. I turned up the volume of my Ipod so I won’t hear what my parents have to say. They usually fight over the most idiotic things. It’s not even healthy anymore. I’m still waiting for the day this family would fall apart, so I can live with Alex, or my mom. And with that, I close my eyes.
My head snapped up when I felt Alex shuffled a little from where he is, he’s awake and talking on his phone, and probably to his slutty girlfriend.
I rolled my eyes at him and continued to just drown myself in self-pity, along with my music.
I don’t even know why I’m so pissed off at everything, I know in my guts that I want something, I’m still just so clueless.
How do you even want something, and have no idea what it is?
But the way I miss Alex gives me a small hint that it’s something about it. Maybe I’m jealous? I want my big brother to be happy of course, but that doesn’t mean I want him to distance himself to me, we rarely talk, I don’t even see him out of his room anymore. And when I hear his voice, it’s either only if he’s on his phone, or when he’s going out.
Alex used to teach me guitar, back when I was 10 years old, he saved up enough money to buy me an acoustic guitar, back then I have no interest in musical instruments. And Alex forced me to take a step forward and see what I can make out my life, it went all so well and learned so many things from him.
That was then, when Alex used to be my bestfriend. But right now, he's the biggest douche in my life. He's been all pissy and a bit of a push over when he started to go out with that girlfriend of his', what was her name? Layla? Lauren? Lisa? Oh who the fuck cares! She's only dating him because she knows my brother got signed in a contract with a recording company, which could be his big break and he's probably taking me with him since he knows that I play guitar well enough to be in his band.
---
Baltimore
The sweet smell of oak trees and grass filled my nose as I step out of the car, grimacing at the house standing proudly in front of me. Imagining what my life would be in the next years as I grow up in this place. Would I make friends? Will I make more enemies? Or would I live alone for the rest of my life in this town?
My mind keep telling me that I really don't care what would happen to me if I started living here. If I would hate it or love it.
But right now, I think I finally came up with my decision, that I, literally, just started to hate this place.
Why? Because, there's a girl standing on the porch, wearing a short shorts exposing her long legs and a gray tank top that matches her green eyes. To be really honest, she's beautiful. Most beautiful person I've laid my eyes on(except for Alex, but that doesn't count).
My adoration simply turned into a scowl, when Alex walked over her and opened his arms to offer that girl a hug, screaming "Lisa!". So that's her name.... Lisa.
Next thing I know, he's kissing that 'Lisa' girl. Ew. That's just fucking disgusting.
Well, I think I already know what life would be like with that Lisa around. And with Alex all over her. I better get ready to gag my intestines out. Dammit.
I'M SORRY IF IT'S NOT WORTH THE WAIT. I don't hate Lisa okay? I just can't think of anyone to be with Alex. Idk.. and Lisa would be a great antagonist here. idek. i still dont know. Haha! So, here's fetus Jacky confused with his sexuality and hates Alex for being a douche but deep inside likes him. Yeah. Idek. Comment? It's not that good, i just tried to squeeze this in my time and college is constantly fucking me up in the arse. I'm so sorry if this wasn't worth the wait. I'll make it up to you though. I still love you though baby! Don't leave me!