if you think somethings perfect... give it more time...
So, more complaints from the peanut gallery. This summer has been pretty awesome. just layin back soakin up the sun, hanging out with my friends, getting trashed, having no responsiblity, and running my bank account dry. Oh i also fell in love. It was great, it was the kind of sappy movie love, where you hear and say the perfect lines at the perfect time, and everything makes you giddy and you want to spend every waking second with that person...etc... But as it is, the more time you give something the less perfect it becomes. Now i'm still dating this person and i still love him, but he has now shown me another side of himself that was only a glimpse there before. Which just goes to show, that no matter how perfect something appears, it never is. He has depression...which i mean, who doesn't?... but its really starting to get in the way of everything now. I feel like i am always walking on eggshells not to say the wrong thing, and sometimes things that i do, that just come naturally to me, things i don't even think about, they get to him. i'm tired of making excuses for his behavior around my friends. It didn't used to be like this, until he told me about his problems and now its like they've taken over. i hope we can work through it. i know i need to talk to him about it, but i just don't know how to make it sound right, and non threatening.
other then that i'm about to start work again, and i'm really not looking forward to 12 hour days, but its life and you deal with it. if i could find a better job i would, but mine is just such easy money. the only problem with it is it takes up all my time. plus i might move down to salt lake so that will really take me away from my friends and my life here. Course being here, all i can think about is leaving... getting out and finding somewhere new to go, new things to see... someday.
nothing else really to report now.
--the weather is hopeful, w/ some dramatic breezes and a slight chance of a shit storm or relief of a sunny day.--
~Crystal
other then that i'm about to start work again, and i'm really not looking forward to 12 hour days, but its life and you deal with it. if i could find a better job i would, but mine is just such easy money. the only problem with it is it takes up all my time. plus i might move down to salt lake so that will really take me away from my friends and my life here. Course being here, all i can think about is leaving... getting out and finding somewhere new to go, new things to see... someday.
nothing else really to report now.
--the weather is hopeful, w/ some dramatic breezes and a slight chance of a shit storm or relief of a sunny day.--
~Crystal