randomness

[kckatie]

just your typical poetic ramblings
there was no storm tonight
even though i drove home through dark clouds
with lightning filling up the sky
and i was slightly disappointed
that i wouldn't be able to fall asleep
to the wind blowing
and the distant rumbling of thunder
right outside of my broken window
i feel like i've aged a hundred years inside
but my face has yet to catch up with me
and i might be just part of the audience
sitting back in a darkened theater
and watching the movie that's telling my life story
all the while never even realizing
that this is really about me
i don't want to take responsibility
but i must if i am to go on
i wish i didn't have to choose
between reality and my dreams and wants
i need to let go
i need to be strong
i need to grow up
i need to move on
but i haven't quite figured out
how to do that just yet
the air smells like wildflowers
and it should make me think of summer
but all it does is remind me
of funerals i don't quite remember
except for the overpowering scent
of memories and aching hearts
won't someone sing me a lullaby
rock me back to sleep
so i can escape my need to dream away
my entire time spent being awake