I had always felt alone. She gave me the gift of a sense of belonging... and I don't know how, or why... but, now it's gone and feeling alone is painful. And, now there are days where I feel indifferent to the loneliness... I am becoming desensitized. And, maybe there will be a day when I quit caring, quit loving, and just wait out the perfect ( Read more... )

I hate e-mail ( Read more... )

I've remembered why I first doubted the existence of God. It was the fat kid, feeling lonely, having always struggled to feel loved, wanting to feel God's love, wanting to be saved ( Read more... )

Twas the night before the night before Christmas ( Read more... )

Tonight... I feel lonely, and don't want to go to bed.

I want to lay beneath the Christmas tree with a lover and soft lights all over...

I want warm eyes, and soft breath wispers...

I want to touch someone I love

I want to be in love

I am alone.

It's dark out, again... as if it never changes ( Read more... )

Damn it. Damn it. Ugh, argggg ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be me, only from the outside looking in. Would I enjoy myself as much as I do now, from the inside, or would I find myself suffering in a desperate world - losing hope in the whole process? Imagine knowing someone as well as you know yourself. Imagine knowing yourself as well as you think you know ( Read more... )