I found out he's alive. I tricked him into adding my xbl msn account. He didn't respond to anything I said and promptly blocked me. But my god, all this pain about him having suicided? I have so many mixed feelings about it ( Read more... )

I love Jon. I really do. But I wish I didn't feel like I was causing him more trouble by doing so. I wish it didn't feel like that these last bits of drama with his ex was because of me being here. I wish I could just stop being such a bother ( Read more... )