Well... it's over...

[kawaiiflipchica]

And I'm single once again. He broke up with me yesterday. That's right, 3 days before Valentines. We talked about building a future together. He's the one who suggested I live there. He's the one who looked into visas and green cards and immigration for me. He treated me so well. Until he walked away from me. I don't understand it. How do you go from hot to cold just like that? A few weeks or so ago he told me he wanted to recreate our first date (how mushy is that?) and as recently as a week ago we talked about it. And yesterday, he broke it off.

All I've been able to do is cry. Thankfully, I didn't have work all weekend. Chelle dragged me out last night, when she found out, for bubble tea and some food. Which cheered me up a bit. But I came home and continued my pity party. I couldn't sleep last night and I still don't understand. Will I ever understand? He made me feel amazing. Will I ever find that again? Will I ever find someone who makes me feel amazing? Who I can be myself with? Who can be himself with me? Who treasures me and shares with me? Who wants me to be his partner in the good and especially the bad times? And the most important part, who won't let me go?

Sometimes it seems hopeless. Life is full of empty and broken promises. One day I hope those promises won't be empty or broken, but rather, fulfilled.

Another chapter ended. I hope the next one is better than the last.