A day that was nice, my brain was just being mean
Last night I found it hard to fall asleep because my sleeping schedule is a bit screwed up. I sleep during daytime and stay awake all night, I don't know what is causing it.
I took two tranquilizers, and tried to force myself to sleep by lying in bed with my eyes closed. I knew that if I got up to do this and that and read books and stuff, I would never fall asleep.
I had dreams, but they were so depressing that I decided to get up at ten o’clock in the morning. I wonder why some of my dreams have a certain setting in them, and they give different vibes; such as, I might be having dreams of the summer cottage where I spent my best days in my childhood, and wake up depressed.
Or I might be having dreams of a forest, and wake up either scared witless or sexually aroused. I guess it’s the Finnish nature, that forests are a powerful symbol of awesomeness or sexuality.
I took my morning meds, changed from nightie into a bathrobe, and made coffee.
I washed three loads of laundry.
I took a shower and washed my hair and put conditioner into it. I shaved my armpits and put deodorant into them. I did the 12- step Korean skincare regiment, and applied lotion on my skin. I also shaved the hairs on my chin.
I got dressed and put on jewelry. I couldn’t put on a bra because they all were in the washing machine, so I put on a blouse and a dress that hid my figure.
I have ten brassieres left, I need to buy four more and then I have enough for two weeks.
I made a meal out of mashed potatoes and fish sticks. Right after finishing my meal, my stomach didn’t feel any different.
I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said yes I can.
I took a bus to my parents’ home, once there mom answered the door and dad was home as well.
I drank coffee and orange juice and made a couple of sandwiches.
I was in an unhappy mood, even if nothing had happened. Soon my sadness turned into sourness.
I left and took a bus to Majakka. I went to the support group for people with delusions, I had a good time there.
After the group, I took a bus back home. I went to the supermarket to buy milk and then I went back home.
I put cortisone emulsion into my scalp and took my evening meds.
I’m thinking of starting to save money for laser treatment or something so I can get rid of the hair on my chin, and perhaps on my armpits as well.
Tomorrow I will receive the weekly allowance. I will buy Christmas cards and birthday cards, postage stamps, lip scrub, a ticket to the Dog Fair, and something else. I also need to pay my Microsoft Word subscription.
My mother will come for a visit, she will bring some Christmas stuff. I will go visit Horror Shop, and give Sami a Christmas card. Then I will go visit my friend Elisa.
On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework. I will tidy up the bathroom, take out the recycling, change the towels and bed sheets, and hoover the floor. I will go see some Christmas decorations around the town, then go visit a museum, and then go to movies.
On Sunday, I will go visit my parents so that they can give me the weekly allowance. I will call my granny. I will go to a manicure.
I took two tranquilizers, and tried to force myself to sleep by lying in bed with my eyes closed. I knew that if I got up to do this and that and read books and stuff, I would never fall asleep.
I had dreams, but they were so depressing that I decided to get up at ten o’clock in the morning. I wonder why some of my dreams have a certain setting in them, and they give different vibes; such as, I might be having dreams of the summer cottage where I spent my best days in my childhood, and wake up depressed.
Or I might be having dreams of a forest, and wake up either scared witless or sexually aroused. I guess it’s the Finnish nature, that forests are a powerful symbol of awesomeness or sexuality.
I took my morning meds, changed from nightie into a bathrobe, and made coffee.
I washed three loads of laundry.
I took a shower and washed my hair and put conditioner into it. I shaved my armpits and put deodorant into them. I did the 12- step Korean skincare regiment, and applied lotion on my skin. I also shaved the hairs on my chin.
I got dressed and put on jewelry. I couldn’t put on a bra because they all were in the washing machine, so I put on a blouse and a dress that hid my figure.
I have ten brassieres left, I need to buy four more and then I have enough for two weeks.
I made a meal out of mashed potatoes and fish sticks. Right after finishing my meal, my stomach didn’t feel any different.
I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said yes I can.
I took a bus to my parents’ home, once there mom answered the door and dad was home as well.
I drank coffee and orange juice and made a couple of sandwiches.
I was in an unhappy mood, even if nothing had happened. Soon my sadness turned into sourness.
I left and took a bus to Majakka. I went to the support group for people with delusions, I had a good time there.
After the group, I took a bus back home. I went to the supermarket to buy milk and then I went back home.
I put cortisone emulsion into my scalp and took my evening meds.
I’m thinking of starting to save money for laser treatment or something so I can get rid of the hair on my chin, and perhaps on my armpits as well.
Tomorrow I will receive the weekly allowance. I will buy Christmas cards and birthday cards, postage stamps, lip scrub, a ticket to the Dog Fair, and something else. I also need to pay my Microsoft Word subscription.
My mother will come for a visit, she will bring some Christmas stuff. I will go visit Horror Shop, and give Sami a Christmas card. Then I will go visit my friend Elisa.
On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework. I will tidy up the bathroom, take out the recycling, change the towels and bed sheets, and hoover the floor. I will go see some Christmas decorations around the town, then go visit a museum, and then go to movies.
On Sunday, I will go visit my parents so that they can give me the weekly allowance. I will call my granny. I will go to a manicure.