Why do I still feel this way?
Last night I had a dream where it snowed in June. I have those dreams every now and then where it snows during summer, and it’s normal but a bit of a nuisance.
In another dream I was visiting a friend, and it ended up in a row. Zie told me that zie is going to move out and abandon hir pet guinea pig, and I adopted the poor critter and took it to an animal shelter.
I had a dream about said animal shelter, it was full of apes and monkeys! I bet my friend Zoya would have loved it.
I got up about at ten o’clock in the morning, took my medicine, ate a breakfast, had a wash, got dressed, and went for a walk.
Or actually, I just walked to the convenience store and bought five postage stamps and an iced latte. Then I went to the supermarket and bought three liters of milk for granny and me, and then I went back to granny’s home.
I helped granny cook beet and salmon soup for lunch. It tasted delicious.
After lunch, I went for a walk on the hills. I walked all the way from the beginning to the end, and I felt like I was fuming with anger. It’s not like I had anything to be angry about, it was just my PMS mixed with the everyday anxiety.
Once back at granny’s home, she made me pancakes and coffee. I have a feeling I am not losing weight; I have decided that one of this year’s challenges is to lose 15 kilograms of my weight by eating less and exercising more.
The thing is, I am always depressed and anxious, it cannot ever be cured. If I go for a walk, I am simply depressed and anxious on a sunny beach or a beautiful forest. If I do yoga, I am depressed and anxious in downward dog asana.
I wish I could be a normal person.
While writing this, I accidentally lost a button on my Dirndl dress, so I sewed it back on with my own hands. I think the last time I sewed something was in junior high home economics class, while I was bullied by the others.
I might take my clothes to my favorite dressmaker from now on, they give me discount because I am a regular customer, and besides, I would appreciate if a professional did all the work for me.
I’m not saying I should feel ecstatic all the time, I just wish I didn’t feel so depressed and anxious all the time.
Sometimes I feel like every bite of food I eat affects my well- being.
I went for one last outing; I went to the supermarket to buy a box of pantyliners, I also wanted to buy a Frixion pen but they didn’t have those.
Tomorrow I will go visit the library, and borrow some books.
In another dream I was visiting a friend, and it ended up in a row. Zie told me that zie is going to move out and abandon hir pet guinea pig, and I adopted the poor critter and took it to an animal shelter.
I had a dream about said animal shelter, it was full of apes and monkeys! I bet my friend Zoya would have loved it.
I got up about at ten o’clock in the morning, took my medicine, ate a breakfast, had a wash, got dressed, and went for a walk.
Or actually, I just walked to the convenience store and bought five postage stamps and an iced latte. Then I went to the supermarket and bought three liters of milk for granny and me, and then I went back to granny’s home.
I helped granny cook beet and salmon soup for lunch. It tasted delicious.
After lunch, I went for a walk on the hills. I walked all the way from the beginning to the end, and I felt like I was fuming with anger. It’s not like I had anything to be angry about, it was just my PMS mixed with the everyday anxiety.
Once back at granny’s home, she made me pancakes and coffee. I have a feeling I am not losing weight; I have decided that one of this year’s challenges is to lose 15 kilograms of my weight by eating less and exercising more.
The thing is, I am always depressed and anxious, it cannot ever be cured. If I go for a walk, I am simply depressed and anxious on a sunny beach or a beautiful forest. If I do yoga, I am depressed and anxious in downward dog asana.
I wish I could be a normal person.
While writing this, I accidentally lost a button on my Dirndl dress, so I sewed it back on with my own hands. I think the last time I sewed something was in junior high home economics class, while I was bullied by the others.
I might take my clothes to my favorite dressmaker from now on, they give me discount because I am a regular customer, and besides, I would appreciate if a professional did all the work for me.
I’m not saying I should feel ecstatic all the time, I just wish I didn’t feel so depressed and anxious all the time.
Sometimes I feel like every bite of food I eat affects my well- being.
I went for one last outing; I went to the supermarket to buy a box of pantyliners, I also wanted to buy a Frixion pen but they didn’t have those.
Tomorrow I will go visit the library, and borrow some books.