Why do I feel this way?
I had all kinds of nice dreams, I didn’t feel like getting up from the bed at all.
In one of the bad dreams, I had lost my shoes in a shopping mall. Along with the dreams where my teeth crumble and where I am naked in a public place, the dreams where I lose my shoes are the most common Freudian ones.
But the rest of the dreams were nice, and a bit emotional.
Sometimes I actually believe that I am the happiest when I sleep, and that’s kind of a sad thought.
Granny tried to wake me up at half past seven o’clock in the morning (07:30 am), but I slept till half past nine o’clock in the morning (09:30 am), took my morning medicine, had rice porridge with stewed plums and Karelian pies, cocoa and coffee for breakfast.
Then I brushed my teeth and washed my face, dabbed lotion on my skin, got dressed, and put on the usual jewelry; three color- coordinated fake diamond studs into each of the piercing holes in my earlobes, and the plastic mermaid pendant necklace around my neck.
I went for a long walk in the rural area of the neighborhood, I was thinking of going for a longer walk later today. This time I didn’t have as much delusions as I had yesterday.
Once back home, I felt very fresh. Granny was listening to the Midsummer church services on the radio.
I did some simple stretches, and read some of my granny’s poetry books. She has plenty of them.
Later the day I helped granny cook the lunch; oven- baked salmon, baked potatoes, three different kinds of creamy salad, and fried onion. It was absolutely scrumptious! Considering that I have been eating three meals a day and exercising a lot, I will return to my own home healthier in mind and body. I hope I will be able to continue the routine.
I went for a walk. I felt alright, didn’t have any delusions. I went to the cemetery next to the local church, read the names and dates on the headstones, and felt calm.
Once back at granny’s home, I continued my knitting.
All the quilt squares I am knitting have to be 18 centimeters in length and width, and I am knitting with needles that are three and half millimeters wide. I’m having a hard time making all the quilt squares wide enough.
I had five cherry tomatoes and two mugs of cocoa for supper, and took my evening medicine.
I watched TV with granny, and saw an advertisement for the TV show The Handmaid’s Tale. It triggered such a bad anxiety attack that I can barely remember all the nice things I did today.
Tomorrow I will continue doing the same things: going for walks, watching Netflix, knitting the quilt squares, and keeping granny company.
I can’t wait for the Midsummer festivities to be over, so I can go to the local library and art museum, they are closed during the holidays.
In one of the bad dreams, I had lost my shoes in a shopping mall. Along with the dreams where my teeth crumble and where I am naked in a public place, the dreams where I lose my shoes are the most common Freudian ones.
But the rest of the dreams were nice, and a bit emotional.
Sometimes I actually believe that I am the happiest when I sleep, and that’s kind of a sad thought.
Granny tried to wake me up at half past seven o’clock in the morning (07:30 am), but I slept till half past nine o’clock in the morning (09:30 am), took my morning medicine, had rice porridge with stewed plums and Karelian pies, cocoa and coffee for breakfast.
Then I brushed my teeth and washed my face, dabbed lotion on my skin, got dressed, and put on the usual jewelry; three color- coordinated fake diamond studs into each of the piercing holes in my earlobes, and the plastic mermaid pendant necklace around my neck.
I went for a long walk in the rural area of the neighborhood, I was thinking of going for a longer walk later today. This time I didn’t have as much delusions as I had yesterday.
Once back home, I felt very fresh. Granny was listening to the Midsummer church services on the radio.
I did some simple stretches, and read some of my granny’s poetry books. She has plenty of them.
Later the day I helped granny cook the lunch; oven- baked salmon, baked potatoes, three different kinds of creamy salad, and fried onion. It was absolutely scrumptious! Considering that I have been eating three meals a day and exercising a lot, I will return to my own home healthier in mind and body. I hope I will be able to continue the routine.
I went for a walk. I felt alright, didn’t have any delusions. I went to the cemetery next to the local church, read the names and dates on the headstones, and felt calm.
Once back at granny’s home, I continued my knitting.
All the quilt squares I am knitting have to be 18 centimeters in length and width, and I am knitting with needles that are three and half millimeters wide. I’m having a hard time making all the quilt squares wide enough.
I had five cherry tomatoes and two mugs of cocoa for supper, and took my evening medicine.
I watched TV with granny, and saw an advertisement for the TV show The Handmaid’s Tale. It triggered such a bad anxiety attack that I can barely remember all the nice things I did today.
Tomorrow I will continue doing the same things: going for walks, watching Netflix, knitting the quilt squares, and keeping granny company.
I can’t wait for the Midsummer festivities to be over, so I can go to the local library and art museum, they are closed during the holidays.