I've been doing some thinking...
... and I'm probably going to go on a little hiatus for a bit. I'll still be around commenting on BSG, but that's probably about it. It's pretty clear to me that there aren't many places where my opinions are welcome/downright ridiculed and I don't like arguing with my friends. Because you're all my friends. I love you guys, my old friends and my
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You are the kind of person who is hard to get to know. People around you should have patience and strong nerves if they want to communicate with you and actualy see through you. You are not an easy person to understand. But I've never, ever considered this a flaw. I don't like easy to read people. just because... they are easy. :D If someone decides to be friends with you, he has to invest much. But you give much in return and you are always honest, which is a quality I respect, espesially in the way you are being honest- not too harsh, but not too pleasant either.
So... what to say.... yes- you are the kind of person most of the people would ignore because they do not bother to invest time and emotions, but this is their problem, not yours. I know how it feels to be ignored and I can totally understand what you are going through, but try and think about yourself as a unique person. And "unique" is unique- not bad, not entirely good- just complex. Don't give up on yourself, Katie :) I haven't given up on you :D You drive me crazy, you annoy me and you make me want to go and hide from you sometimes, but you are more than what you think you are. I cannot describe you as "perfect" or "sweet", but I can assure you, it was worth every conversation we had, no matter how crazy most of them are :D
Just relax, go to the a/r thread and be happy :) We always do some things wrong, but that's our charm :D
hugs :)
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I'm really sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings, because I know I've been unnecessarily hard or nasty with you at times and that wasn't fair to you at all. I know this sounds like a broken record, but it's not me at all. I'm extremely shy in real life and it's easy to be assertive when you're not face-to-face. Unfortunately, I haven't had much real-life practice and my assertiveness can turn into aggression. Lack of practice isn't an excuse, but I'm going to do better in the future.
What I'm getting from you is that I'm quirky. And I actually think of that as a good thing, if I can start fine-tuning the positive sides of my quirkiness rather than the negative sides.
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And you haven't exctly hurt my feelings- don't put yourself so low. Yes, you have made me angry, but you are not a nasty person. Only a nasty person can hurt other people. You are stubborn, but, in my opinion, everyone can see that you don't mean to hurt people. At least in a discussion. About your entries here, as someone below me said- yes, your posts are really angry... But I know what is it like to be passionate about something and to lose the line between pasion and anger. As long as your anger is directed to the public faces (like Ophra :D) and not to the users on your flist, I don't think that there is a problem. After all, there is a freedom of speech. And who really knows you can tell that you don't mean to offend people with your entries here.
And yes, quirky is good :)
hugs :)
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