... and I'm probably going to go on a little hiatus for a bit. I'll still be around commenting on BSG, but that's probably about it. It's pretty clear to me that there aren't many places where my opinions are welcome/downright ridiculed and I don't like arguing with my friends. Because you're all my friends. I love you guys, my old friends and my
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I don't do well in person. I've pretty much come to terms with that. I'm very dysfunctional in social situations and a lot of what I have to say is better articulated by other people. I'm sure that if I hadn't had a roommate with me at Dragon*Con, I would've spent half the night crying over how much of a fool I must have looked like while I was there.
I agree with you on a lot of things and even when I don't agree, I think I can almost always understand where you're coming from. I don't mean to be mean and I think the few people who really do know me would be shocked to hear that ( ... )
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I'm not afraid of you, fandom-wise, because I know that if I'm ever on the receiving end of one of the EPIC B-SLAPS, it will have been well and truly earned. I don't think there's an area in which I don't respect your opinion.
I'm sure that in some of those instances, I'll look back and go, "I just shouldn't post or comment when I'm in a crappy mood," because even when I'm annoyed I do try to be a reasonable person.
I guess I think I've lost my perspective lately and I'm looking for some way to regain. I wish I could go back to the person I was, to that fourteen-year old who wanted to believe in OJ because he said he didn't do it. Maybe not the best example, because I do still believe ( ... )
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I'm really sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings, because I know I've been unnecessarily hard or nasty with you at times and that wasn't fair to you at all. I know this sounds like a broken record, but it's not me at all. I'm extremely shy in real life and it's easy to be assertive when you're not face-to-face. Unfortunately, I haven't had much real-life practice and my assertiveness can turn into aggression. Lack of practice isn't an excuse, but I'm going to do better in the future.
What I'm getting from you is that I'm quirky. And I actually think of that as a good thing, if I can start fine-tuning the positive sides of my quirkiness rather than the negative sides.
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It's not even being dropped that bothers me so much as the fact that some people won't even give me a chance. And I know I'm selling short the people who do give me that chance when all I can focus on is wondering why I'm not a good enough writer or a fun enough person to be able to hang out with the "cool kids" and not appreciate the people who do appreciate me. And then I just feel even worse because I start feeling like an ungrateful little shit, because I do have friends who do like to talk to me and include me.
I hope to finish that epic someday, but I've recently had my faith in my own writing very badly shaken by general remarks made by someone I respect very much, so I'll need to bounce back from that. I also belong to a prompt comm and I'm not sure exactly what's so "comm-y" about it, because I feel like it exists in a vacuum sometimes.
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I've seen quite a few posts that have rankled me the wrong way or been downright insulting (without meaning to be, of course), but I've decided to simply keep my mouth shut when it comes to them, because it's not worth it anymore.
((Con Buddy))
Coincidentally, have you given any more thought to next year yet?
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No worries. I felt bad about not taking you. But I was so damn tired after being there all day and being in my car for 12 hours the day before that I really didn't wanna go back.
Have you already booked a hotel? I looked into rooms at the Hilton and the Marriot, but they're all sold out of the con rate. I could do a regular room at either one of them, but it's like $300+ a night. Wouldn't be too bad I guess if I had a few roomies. I plan on coming in on Thurs again and leaving on Monday. And incidentally, if you book your D*C tickets before Feb 13, you can get them for $70. After that it goes up and up until it reaches $100.
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Yes, I got a room! At the Marriot! The only thing is, we might have to find another place for Sunday night. I say "might" because I haven't tackled the task of trying to add a night to my reservation yet.
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