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I have this "thing" when it comes to people. As I grow and become this woman, if you will, as the years pile on I expect nothing to stay the same with myself. I want everything to be different and everything to be better than it once was. However, I want to maintain knowing who I am as a person at all times. I don't mean I am going to change, because what I mean is I am going to grow and adapt and be better. Be brighter. This is what I expect of myself.
When I think of people, people I once knew or was once close with and I think of the perception of the type of person I think they are, I expect them not to change. To grow and adapt and be brighter, but not to completely change who they are as a person. Because to me, that implies a certain degree of phoniness. I do not believe people change, they grow and adapt and acquire new skills as they age, but who a person is deep at their core does not change. I am always the most disappointed when I hold respect for someone and then time goes by and I see them or hear something of them and it completely shatters everything I once thought them to be. Because the person they are now does not correspond with the person they once were. You would barely recognize them. I question which of the two versions of the person is real...what really portrays who they are at the epicenter? Rarely have I found myself not feeling grey over my findings.
When I think of people, people I once knew or was once close with and I think of the perception of the type of person I think they are, I expect them not to change. To grow and adapt and be brighter, but not to completely change who they are as a person. Because to me, that implies a certain degree of phoniness. I do not believe people change, they grow and adapt and acquire new skills as they age, but who a person is deep at their core does not change. I am always the most disappointed when I hold respect for someone and then time goes by and I see them or hear something of them and it completely shatters everything I once thought them to be. Because the person they are now does not correspond with the person they once were. You would barely recognize them. I question which of the two versions of the person is real...what really portrays who they are at the epicenter? Rarely have I found myself not feeling grey over my findings.