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so much shit has gone down in the last 4 months i can't even begin to describe how i feel. i'll have to backtrack and do like a month at a time thing. i feel disconnected and guilty and all used up. when it feels like everythings looking up - things rapidly turn the opposite direction. i can't keep up. but, i will be updating soon, properly, although i may do several posts to make it easier. miss you all.