Superstitions on Loss
Went to my mom's for dinner on Wednesday. We were talking to my aunt, and the subject of my lucky pendant came up. My aunt seems pretty damned sure I'll find it one of these days, and I'd always harbored hope, but something my mom said makes me pretty sure I'll never see it again.
My mom is rather superstitious, which most times just amuses me (although perhaps that's hypocritical of me, considering I call the thing my "lucky" pendant). But this time, I'm quite certain she's right. Losing jewelery is apparently a sign that you will lose something precious in your life. (As if losing the jewelery wasn't bad enough already) And while it didn't happen immediately, within a year or two of losing my pendant (I can never remember when that stupid chain broke), I did lose something very very precious.
I thought that I'd pretty much come to terms with that loss, but now I wonder if my yearning for and even all the dreams of finding my lost pendant was a sign of some much deeper longing. And now I'm fairly certain that I'll never get either back.
My mom is rather superstitious, which most times just amuses me (although perhaps that's hypocritical of me, considering I call the thing my "lucky" pendant). But this time, I'm quite certain she's right. Losing jewelery is apparently a sign that you will lose something precious in your life. (As if losing the jewelery wasn't bad enough already) And while it didn't happen immediately, within a year or two of losing my pendant (I can never remember when that stupid chain broke), I did lose something very very precious.
I thought that I'd pretty much come to terms with that loss, but now I wonder if my yearning for and even all the dreams of finding my lost pendant was a sign of some much deeper longing. And now I'm fairly certain that I'll never get either back.