Sad Still re: Sam
It's remarkable I've been productive in even a minimal way at work this week, or that I've slept at all, lifted weights, stretched, ran 5 miles, automatic
I've been distracting myself with extremely intense historical Spanish Inquisition BDSM role play with my Nomis.
Might need another day of crying by myself at the condo, though. I can't cry at the house with T and/or B, though I did cry with David on the back patio on Sunday,
with T and/or B, I need to be their Zen Rock, impassionately absorbing their emotions, I can't possibly add to the drama level it's already too high,
here at the condo I can absorb my own emotions
I've been distracting myself with extremely intense historical Spanish Inquisition BDSM role play with my Nomis.
Might need another day of crying by myself at the condo, though. I can't cry at the house with T and/or B, though I did cry with David on the back patio on Sunday,
with T and/or B, I need to be their Zen Rock, impassionately absorbing their emotions, I can't possibly add to the drama level it's already too high,
here at the condo I can absorb my own emotions