Saturday morning
I wouldn't say I slept well, but I got some sleep.
I'll get up and eat breakfast, maybe go on a walk, maybe lift weights this morning. Still thinking I'll head to the condo for a night to myself, but I'll see what T & B are up to.
I appreciated Astrid sleeping in my bed with me. She's still hanging out with me.
Last night it sounded like both T & B felt like there was nothing any of us could've done to help Sam survive, so perhaps there will be no lingering blame game between them. I felt satisfied that when I did bring Sam back for her second visit, that T came with me, and that T had spent the week with Sam. Much better than if I'd taken Sam last week without T, and had to put her to sleep without T. But I really didn't expect yesterday would be Sam's last day, that was a shock. The determining factor was something none of us had noticed yet, that Sam's skin had deteriorated and was too fragile to hold her together.
It is likely Sam would not have lasted another month at home.
Well ... I tried to do my best by her, and tried to avoid adding drama to the situation. I knew that at age 14, Sam and Astrid were at risk of something like this. Nobody can say how long we'll have Astrid with us.
OK, Bug, let's get up.
I'll get up and eat breakfast, maybe go on a walk, maybe lift weights this morning. Still thinking I'll head to the condo for a night to myself, but I'll see what T & B are up to.
I appreciated Astrid sleeping in my bed with me. She's still hanging out with me.
Last night it sounded like both T & B felt like there was nothing any of us could've done to help Sam survive, so perhaps there will be no lingering blame game between them. I felt satisfied that when I did bring Sam back for her second visit, that T came with me, and that T had spent the week with Sam. Much better than if I'd taken Sam last week without T, and had to put her to sleep without T. But I really didn't expect yesterday would be Sam's last day, that was a shock. The determining factor was something none of us had noticed yet, that Sam's skin had deteriorated and was too fragile to hold her together.
It is likely Sam would not have lasted another month at home.
Well ... I tried to do my best by her, and tried to avoid adding drama to the situation. I knew that at age 14, Sam and Astrid were at risk of something like this. Nobody can say how long we'll have Astrid with us.
OK, Bug, let's get up.