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I learned a valuable life lesson by crashing into a mental hospital and attending group therapy while there.
The lesson I learned from listening to other people in this place --> was that mental illness is often the result of refusing to accept reality.
It's one thing to want the world to be a better place. It's a different thing to refuse to ( Read more... )
The lesson I learned from listening to other people in this place --> was that mental illness is often the result of refusing to accept reality.
It's one thing to want the world to be a better place. It's a different thing to refuse to ( Read more... )
Weighing mind over matter, just as overseas always does it in its deceiving belief about its supposedly own chosen freedom...
I think I can even explain this in simple words: Why does a brain not let go of its trauma-altered behavior patterns and thought structures? Why does it refuse to accept the safe environment it's currently in and is still stuck in the dangerous environment of the past (e. g. childhood)?
Because this shit burns itself into your mind. It coins you. You're like a tree which had to grow in a very uncomfortable place with too few ressources to bloom. So the internal build of your brain, the internal interconnection, has developed to a base figure that deviates in more or less stronger ways from that of a person which grew up in a warm and caring environment (depending what the person all had to endure). Expecting from a traumatized person with lasting damages so is like expecting from a blind person to be able to see. The person doesn't know how to function like the rest. With therapy you can soothe this state of things and get that person to be that much compatible to live among humans that aren't like it so that the field of conflicts gets smaller for the traumatized one, and so that this person knows how to handle situations better.
But the shadows of its fucked up development years are never going to vanish.
Ill development can't be torn out of someone. Harddisk formatting for a biological brain still hasn't been invented. (And if, it sure would make more things worse than just deleting unwanted stuff.)
And not just being an issue of matter, it also is one of - say, people which are coined by dysfunctional structures, and adapted to live with these coming from other humans, they have a strong tendency to end up in similar structures with just other protagonists over and over again. Because they can't deal and handle something different that once fully respects them as people, nor are they often able to even recognize a conception that treats them like that, nor are they able in this emotionally deeply rooted, deeply outside-inflicted mindset to even accept that as a treatment of themselves. Sometimes even thinking that "they don't deserve it" or deserve a certain ill way of treatment of themselves.
On top, by the way, depending on what you survived as a kid, this threat is still present and there is no reason to stop your trauma-coined behavior and thought patterns.
- Superficial therapies and therapists can tell you a lot, if you are in that position, if there is no reason to let go of your inner structures that are like "being always prepared for war", you don't drop that and become a happy civilian with a job, relationship and all the bourgeois mumbo jumbo. If there are still people out there wanting a piece of you for some reason, or if there's something on you that gets you into troubles with any people time and time again which you can't change (unless you live a life in hiding and self-denial), then you can't stop being that guerilla warrior you've become.
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And by that, you're never going to be able to erase the possibility of getting beaten up again for it. You won't be able to live as unconcerned as a heterosexual person.
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