better, but

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I talked with Ben about Dax, told him about how I fell apart so painfully last weekend with B, spoke about being there aside Dax as he passed,

this time I didn't fall apart, which isn't necessarily a good thing, except I know Dax would want me to be happy/pappy,

For the rest of my life I will be able to cry upon demand, that wasn't a thing before,