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It's so wierd to have some much in common with some. but have nothing at all. It seems like Josh and I have nothing in common, but where we are right now, and what we are doing right now, it's just so right. It's not even wierd to talk about the future with him, right now it seems so important. We get along with each other's family, my dad likes him. If he's not a real good catch, then I'm pretty much screwed in the boy department for the rest of my life. All my friends like him, I get along with his friends. We don't fight, we don't even bicker. We joke, all the time. But we know when to be serious, and bullshit doesn't matter to us, and the people who have tried to break us up, are pretty much just wasting their time. I fell, and I fell hard. It's never been like this, and the one thing that scares me right now is never feeling like this about anybody else. To quote Nick "you guys know what you are, and what you feel, and what you want. No one else matters. It's you and Josh. Not, you, Josh, and the entire town". And it's going to be like that. yes, ask me how it's going and I won't lie, I'll tell you the truth. Things are going amazing, and I honestly can't see it getting any better than this, but everyday, there's something new that he suprises me with =) I love it.
It's so wierd from going to being friends, to not talking. I don't understand it. It's confusing and frusterating. I'm trying to piece together where I went wrong. What I said that was so bad. But I can't see anything. I may have hurt you, but you have hurt me too. I needed your support, I needed your friendship and I asked, I got nothing in return. I suppose it's time for me to stop being the good friend, and try and stop caring. because right now, I can't see you caring, because your excuses for not hanging out confuse me. I don't like being played and that's how I feel.
I'm so happy with my life right now, everything seems to be turning around and falling into place. I'm finally finding out who are the friends that are actually going to stick by me in the end. and who are going to support my decisions whether they make me fall down on my knees or not. I love my friends, my family, my job. I love my life. Nothing is going to bring me down now. This is currently a No Bullshit Zone.