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I'm not dead i promise, but i am gonna kill the barking dog outside if he wakes the baby.
The baby is doing well...we're still not sleeping too good at night which is more than difficult, esp now that its just down to pat and me. having 2 people, one of whom has to work in the morning makes late nights hard. but hopefully he'll get his nights straightened out soon.
Being a mom is weird. Because my hormones are still all over the place its been interesting. I swing from being totally in love with the baby to a crying mess to kinda wishing he wasn't here so I could just go about my day like I always have. its just hard to think sometimes, its totally normal but you do feel bad about feeling those things some times. Its just hard to have something that needs you every 2 hrs on the hour round the clock and screams bloody murder if you are late with his lunch. its enough to wear you out.
as he gets bigger and i can do more the feelings of isolation will pass and he'll be able to go more than 2 hrs at a time between snacks.
its still strange not to go to work. but i'm glad that I've got as much time off as I do because I can't imagine having to go to work while dealing with all this new stuff, i don't envy Man that at all. He's going though the same changes as I am, but he has to put on his grownup pants and go to work 5 days a week.
So ya my life has pretty much done a 360 in a very short amount of time and its been alot, and now my family is gone I'll be calling all those people who offered to come and visit...well those calls will be coming because I'll be desperate for a being who speaks english and I'm sure Man will be itching because he's not used to spending so much time at home sitting around (not that I am either but I've got a head start on it the past week).
The baby is doing well...we're still not sleeping too good at night which is more than difficult, esp now that its just down to pat and me. having 2 people, one of whom has to work in the morning makes late nights hard. but hopefully he'll get his nights straightened out soon.
Being a mom is weird. Because my hormones are still all over the place its been interesting. I swing from being totally in love with the baby to a crying mess to kinda wishing he wasn't here so I could just go about my day like I always have. its just hard to think sometimes, its totally normal but you do feel bad about feeling those things some times. Its just hard to have something that needs you every 2 hrs on the hour round the clock and screams bloody murder if you are late with his lunch. its enough to wear you out.
as he gets bigger and i can do more the feelings of isolation will pass and he'll be able to go more than 2 hrs at a time between snacks.
its still strange not to go to work. but i'm glad that I've got as much time off as I do because I can't imagine having to go to work while dealing with all this new stuff, i don't envy Man that at all. He's going though the same changes as I am, but he has to put on his grownup pants and go to work 5 days a week.
So ya my life has pretty much done a 360 in a very short amount of time and its been alot, and now my family is gone I'll be calling all those people who offered to come and visit...well those calls will be coming because I'll be desperate for a being who speaks english and I'm sure Man will be itching because he's not used to spending so much time at home sitting around (not that I am either but I've got a head start on it the past week).