who is poking their head up from the sand
yep its meeeee
things are things and stuff is stuff and happy pills are awesome, though not as awesome as zofran i took for morning sickness. the pills certainly take the edge off, as I haven't contemplated walking me and pumpkin infront of a bus, or downing handfulls of pills for a while now I'm going to call it a success.
pumpkin slept almost through the night for the first time last night. He only woke up at almost 4 am which isn't that shabbby. I'll take 8 to almost 4, seeing that I got from 9:30 to almost 4 that's the longest stretch of sleep I've had in a while.
Having a baby has been odd. I feel my friendships have mostly been shot to hell because of it, but I kinda expected that being one of the only breeders in nonbreeding world. Because I can't stay out as late as I could before, and I'm on a pretty strict sched its been hard to find times to go out or have people come over. We pretty much live our lives between the hours of 5:30 am and 8 pm.
Man and I are doing ok. Its been a hard adjustment, all the attention he used to get is now split with the lions share going to the thing that can't feed itself, move or wipe its own butt. Its been hard for him, and if I'm honest I haven't been as sensitive to it as I should be, but too much of me is spread too thin between trying to taking care of the pumpkin, dealing with the boss from hell, taking care of man, taking care of the pets and clinging the shards of my old life. Just trying to get a min to myself is hard enough, there are days where I want nothing more than to sit and play mario or read 1 chapter of a book or call somebody, but I can't 'cause there's always something.
I've taking smoking back up as its the one thing that i can do that only takes a min, and i can't be around the baby when i do it. I've got to quit again but its just another thing to do on the list.
and even though the boss is from hell and shits about to get ugly at work I'm so happy to be back. pumpkin LOVES LOVES LOVES his daycare. There are max 6 kids under 1 in the room with him and right now there are only 3 full timers. The other kids love him and bring him toys and hug and kiss him, the teachers think he's wonderful so that makes life so much easer.
and pumpkin himself has gotten better. he's a pretty happy kid now, he got most of his ugly out at the beginning so now he's a pretty happy guy. He's started to eat foodz now and thats helped a bunch, he's a 20lb 4 month old so it takes alot of fuel to fill that belly.
I'm really gonna try to be back here more, though I don't know how many peeps are left here who haven't jumped to FB.FB is great and all but there's alot of people on there who don't need to know just how crazy I am right now, LJ is a much better outlet for whats really going on updates.
things are things and stuff is stuff and happy pills are awesome, though not as awesome as zofran i took for morning sickness. the pills certainly take the edge off, as I haven't contemplated walking me and pumpkin infront of a bus, or downing handfulls of pills for a while now I'm going to call it a success.
pumpkin slept almost through the night for the first time last night. He only woke up at almost 4 am which isn't that shabbby. I'll take 8 to almost 4, seeing that I got from 9:30 to almost 4 that's the longest stretch of sleep I've had in a while.
Having a baby has been odd. I feel my friendships have mostly been shot to hell because of it, but I kinda expected that being one of the only breeders in nonbreeding world. Because I can't stay out as late as I could before, and I'm on a pretty strict sched its been hard to find times to go out or have people come over. We pretty much live our lives between the hours of 5:30 am and 8 pm.
Man and I are doing ok. Its been a hard adjustment, all the attention he used to get is now split with the lions share going to the thing that can't feed itself, move or wipe its own butt. Its been hard for him, and if I'm honest I haven't been as sensitive to it as I should be, but too much of me is spread too thin between trying to taking care of the pumpkin, dealing with the boss from hell, taking care of man, taking care of the pets and clinging the shards of my old life. Just trying to get a min to myself is hard enough, there are days where I want nothing more than to sit and play mario or read 1 chapter of a book or call somebody, but I can't 'cause there's always something.
I've taking smoking back up as its the one thing that i can do that only takes a min, and i can't be around the baby when i do it. I've got to quit again but its just another thing to do on the list.
and even though the boss is from hell and shits about to get ugly at work I'm so happy to be back. pumpkin LOVES LOVES LOVES his daycare. There are max 6 kids under 1 in the room with him and right now there are only 3 full timers. The other kids love him and bring him toys and hug and kiss him, the teachers think he's wonderful so that makes life so much easer.
and pumpkin himself has gotten better. he's a pretty happy kid now, he got most of his ugly out at the beginning so now he's a pretty happy guy. He's started to eat foodz now and thats helped a bunch, he's a 20lb 4 month old so it takes alot of fuel to fill that belly.
I'm really gonna try to be back here more, though I don't know how many peeps are left here who haven't jumped to FB.FB is great and all but there's alot of people on there who don't need to know just how crazy I am right now, LJ is a much better outlet for whats really going on updates.