Sighs....
So Thursday came and went. They did ex-ray's started me on a steroid but I feel that's like a band-aid on a bad situation. I'm supposedly to take it and wait for 7 days and then call in and then we do a MRI. I sometimes wonder how they think a person like me functions or lives between appointments. After leaving last night I had to wait a hour in the car for my stupid script to get ready, I really hate Meijers pharmacy every time I get any thing there it's a problem. I was in the car far too long and it was horrible getting home and back into the house. Started the medication today but I still feel weird things all over my body and know something is just wrong.
I keep thinking how will I manage this? Like how will I take care of my pets or like shop or just do anything. My arms are like the only thing left of me that is well me. It's like life has taken just about everything for me can't it just leave me alone with what I have left?
I'm so tired of living in fear or in pain and honestly I can't go thru another back surgery like that last one. That was beyond horrible and its taken me all of the two years since to get this far and now this. Every time I stop and think or fear getting up I start crying.
I'm rather tired of crying as well. Well no matter I still want another MRI to know everything is still in place even though it doesn't feel like it at all.
I'm trying to find one good thing lately and just can't...
I keep thinking how will I manage this? Like how will I take care of my pets or like shop or just do anything. My arms are like the only thing left of me that is well me. It's like life has taken just about everything for me can't it just leave me alone with what I have left?
I'm so tired of living in fear or in pain and honestly I can't go thru another back surgery like that last one. That was beyond horrible and its taken me all of the two years since to get this far and now this. Every time I stop and think or fear getting up I start crying.
I'm rather tired of crying as well. Well no matter I still want another MRI to know everything is still in place even though it doesn't feel like it at all.
I'm trying to find one good thing lately and just can't...