I've wasted enough time not updating, and for that I deserve every brick, so without further ramblings, here it is, an update. Enjoy throwing tomatoes at me Title: Retribution Eighteen
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Thank you very very very much.... But now I have to read it all again. I think I have lost the thread. >_<
I really really love this chapter. But it is so hard to find the right words to describe my feelings. I mean I am not such a big MxF fan but this hurts really much. Somehow I hope this words are just a joke. Mikhail is the type of guy who would make such a macabre joke just to regret it in the other second. Or I hope so. Well, I will see what you have planned for them. And remember. I have something here what is worse than tomates... cotton balls! And I will use them!
Waaw. Finally Yoh understand what an idiot he was. -_- A bit too late. I don't know what hurts me most: A Mikhail who can't recognize his true love or a Yoh who now understands what he has lost/missed...
Thank you for stopping by to read and comment after such a long hiatus. I just hope the reason you couldn't find words to describe was not due to this being so disappointing in some ways, or that I have bored you to death ^^! And while I'm sorry to hear that you're not a big MxF fan, I am relieved that it hurts to read *gets bricked*. Well that was the point of this chapter, pain, pain and more pain. As for whether it was a joke, I can't really give that away. But one thing I can promise, os that Mikhail is very much himself, with or without those memories and I was very glad to be able to write him as his normal self again before I end this story
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As always I love this chapter. Yeeeeah, I know. I'm not a big MxF fan, but I love your Mikhail and Fei a lot. If the 'real' Mik would be this way it would not be a problem for me to see Fei in his arms. But the real Mik is... ok, I do love your Mik. I would kill to get such a man in my life. xD
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You're a YohxFei then? I'm always so flattered when I can get a Yoh x Fei to read this and open her heart to Mikhail, even if it's just in my writing. I happen to think there's really no real Mik to judge though. We only saw the tip of the iceberg and now he's gone with the wind. Although, I don't think YA had ever intended Mikhail to be this dark and insane either LOL
I don't know if I should hate it or love it. Ah I get what you mean, even though I don't share the same problem. Anything that manages to hurt me I love with a passion, especially tragic endings (why I love Shakespeare and Greek tragedy!).
And for me it doesn't matter if it is a story about Mik and Fei, Asami and Fei or something with your own characters That is such a relief and one of the best things a writer would want to hear. I keep worrying that MikxFei is the only thing I can write about, and it is making me anxious as hell when I write my original. Thank you for giving me a push and I hope I do not disappoint in the future.
Yep, I am. xD And I will always be... even with this ... Novel thing. -_- What happend to all my hopes? They were killed by a fanfic novel. And I was really disappointed when the last special chapter was not a story with Akihito's (dream) office. It was really funny to see a flirty Mik and a work-happy Fei. But now... pfuuuf... broken. *sigh*
Like a Greek tragedy... Your story reminds me of Orpheus and Eurydice. A blink away from freedom and happiness. You see the light, walk hand in hand and then... broken. All hope is gone and you are alone. With nothing left than a memory and a deep pain... Wow, I see what you did there. When I think about it... Now I love your story even more. But don't let Fei become an Orpheus. >_< My German teacher would be so proud of me if she could see this wonderful interpretation... And I think my brain is still sleeping. Next time this loud bird sings at my window... I WILL KILL IT! It's 7 am. I was awake until 4 (reading your fic) ... Not... enough... sleep. xD Ok, back to the topic
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Yep, I am. xD And I will always be... even with this ... Novel thing. -_- Oh..you hate it too? It's refreshing really to see another YxF who actually understand what YxF was really about, and not just rooting for them to just get together, have sex, and celebrate even though it ruins everything that had ever been good about them in the first place. I'm actually very happy it wasn't MxF. I would have been ruined for life had MxF turned out lame. Sometimes you want to keep your dreams from coming true because reality isn't always as great. I've said more than once actually, that perhaps if I still have the will and energy, I want to try writing that depressing YxF fic which will probably be really long too, but it's scares me because the heart of YxF to me, is how beautifully Yoh suffers for the sake of Fei, and how the nature of their personality will conflict each other so much that they'll end up hurting one another to eternity *drools*. I know a lot of YxF disagree and think they can totally be happy together, but I have a feeling
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I don't like the novel at all. I don't know. Let's not think about the whole Yan rape thing and not about a jealous Tao... I am happy that Fei realised that there is someone who belongs only to him. That Yoh can give him the feeling to be safe and to be loved. But it was so disappointing that his thoughts always wander to Asami. Maybe he would really do that. But would he really compare Yoh always with Asami even if they have sex? At the end of the NT arc I tought Fei finally forgot Asami and understood that his life goes on. But the novel... NO! Also the beginnig of the novel is a complete disappointment. I mean Yoh fled to Taiwan after he told Fei about his feelings... He fled?! WTF?! For real? The real Yoh NEVER would do something like this. His pride would NEVER allow this. That was the point where I thought 'Yep, that is a fanfic.' And it is such a bad fanfiction full of contradictions. -_- And Yoh... Yoh is not someone who would do bad jokes. A Yoh who grins like a child... NEVER! The novel Yoh is not the real Yoh at all. And
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I am happy that Fei realised that there is someone who belongs only to him.I haven't read the novel, but from the summary I didn't feel that Fei realized that at all. He was still drifting to Asami, which was actually the part I find very realistic about the novel even though it must have hurt a lot for YxF fans. I hated NT ending because it failed to convince me that Fei has managed to let go of Asami, and even if it was implied, it was too easy, too much of a rush, and too shallow for me to believe so. But still, I think the drifting to Asami part was a great set up for a YxF major angst which, sadly, was never picked up. You see, that would have been the first thing I throw at YxF if I were to write this pairing, the ASAMI thing that actually was a problem to BOTH of them. This could be even worse than Asami in the middle of MxF because Mikhail wasn't involved, but Yoh was deeply involved with Asami. That alone is worth reading, more so than the smut or what kind of dim sum they shared in the morning *rolls eyes*. But yes, I
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Well here in Germany we have the novel. But I don't know if the translation is so good and correct. :/ I mean here the first volume of Finder is set to the index and because of that the other volumes are really ... meh. For example they 'translated' "Feel the pleasure" to "Feel the love". *cough* So maybe I should wait for the English translation to see what Fei and Yoh are talking about. xD
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You know this is the part of Fei I hate so much. This whole 'running after Asami' thing. Because I can't understand it.
You can't understand it because you're looking at it from the wrong perspective. You're looking at it from Fei's point of view, in which case, as you said, it doesn't make sense. The whole point of the kiss Fei forced on Asami in NT was to realise there was nothing to hope for there. I like the way you describe it: that Fei looked purified as he walked away from Asami then. This made complete sense.
But.
VF is not about Fei Long. It's about Asami and Akihito. And so no, not even in what seems to be his very own novel, Fei is not allowed to be free from them. So we see him texting Akihito, and we see him thinking of Asami while having sex with someone else. That's because this is a VF novel, NOT a Fei Long novel. Everything has to remain about Asami and Akihito somehow, even if this means twisting the existing canon and murdering established characterisation
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VF is not about Fei Long. It's about Asami and Akihito.
That is so true, but then again she did give us high loft, and you know who I blame? I blame the overwhelming AxA fans who bombarded her over the lack of AxA, over how much they hate Fei Long, everywhere, not just in the comms. This is the wrong crowd for Fei really. But on top of that she, too, is too much in love with AxA to want to sway from Aki cutting toe nails story (Jelly's words are brilliantly true), and lately I feel she has lost interest altogether.
ASfor even in his OWN novel, it was so fucking blatant with the version with Asami on the fucking cover. I mean that was such a big insult to Fei fans and deceiving as hell. I don't know how Libre got away with it. My respect for the company and the mangaka has become really low after that. It's just wrong.
Yeah, no, no way I'm competing with her O.O ! IT's more like the other way around XDD I wouldn't dare write YxF while you have a go at it. I don't even understand Yoh beyond intuitive level, you said so yourself
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I know it is not about Fei. *sigh* And it is not a Fei novel. I mean why is Asami on the cover of it? If it would be a Fei novel, Mik, Yoh or Tao would be on the cover. Not Asami. This is a clear indication. -_
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YOU DOO???? Can you translate the last part with Mikhail in detail? *gets on hands and knees to beg*
You know this is the part of Fei I hate so much. Hmm, actually that is the part of Fei that I love so much. Not because it's Asami, but because it shows that he's the kind of man that loves so intensely. I actually do have a feeling that both Yoh and Mikhail fell for him because of his unwillingness and inability to forget Asami because when he loves, he loves with everything he has. And especially for Mikhail, he probably wants to be on the receiving end of that love. It is a part of Fei that makes him as good as Yoh. Now, I want him to break free from Asami, but it should never be easy like in NT, or else it destroys everything that Fei Long ever was and makes him weak and shallow. And he has been shallow and soft lately in NT due to Aki. I hated that about Fei. But that's me
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I think people have different interpretations about strengths and weaknesses. If you ask me, yes, I think that's strength. The ability to hold on to what you believe in no matter what without fearing the consequences, without fear of being hurt or having to hurt people. I don't see it a weakness, but it may make you a bad person. At the same time prople who can let go can also be seen as stronger from another perspective. From mine, it is much harder and takes a lot more strength to hold on to something compared to letting go, which is what Fei Long is to me. Weak would be someone who's too afraid to breakfree or help himself. Fei isn't like that though. He doesn't want to breakfree and he's determined to look for something he believes in. My sister who's my complete opposite once told me, "you must never allow anyone to hurt you." And at first I thought she sounded really strong. Then I realize, hey, I am not scared of being hurt, I would rather love and endure pain than not know love at all. It feels to me like hiding at home for
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I really really love this chapter. But it is so hard to find the right words to describe my feelings. I mean I am not such a big MxF fan but this hurts really much.
Somehow I hope this words are just a joke. Mikhail is the type of guy who would make such a macabre joke just to regret it in the other second. Or I hope so. Well, I will see what you have planned for them. And remember. I have something here what is worse than tomates... cotton balls! And I will use them!
Waaw. Finally Yoh understand what an idiot he was. -_- A bit too late. I don't know what hurts me most: A Mikhail who can't recognize his true love or a Yoh who now understands what he has lost/missed...
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I don't know if I should hate it or love it.
Ah I get what you mean, even though I don't share the same problem. Anything that manages to hurt me I love with a passion, especially tragic endings (why I love Shakespeare and Greek tragedy!).
And for me it doesn't matter if it is a story about Mik and Fei, Asami and Fei or something with your own characters
That is such a relief and one of the best things a writer would want to hear. I keep worrying that MikxFei is the only thing I can write about, and it is making me anxious as hell when I write my original. Thank you for giving me a push and I hope I do not disappoint in the future.
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And I was really disappointed when the last special chapter was not a story with Akihito's (dream) office. It was really funny to see a flirty Mik and a work-happy Fei. But now... pfuuuf... broken. *sigh*
Like a Greek tragedy... Your story reminds me of Orpheus and Eurydice. A blink away from freedom and happiness. You see the light, walk hand in hand and then... broken. All hope is gone and you are alone. With nothing left than a memory and a deep pain... Wow, I see what you did there. When I think about it... Now I love your story even more. But don't let Fei become an Orpheus. >_< My German teacher would be so proud of me if she could see this wonderful interpretation... And I think my brain is still sleeping. Next time this loud bird sings at my window... I WILL KILL IT! It's 7 am. I was awake until 4 (reading your fic) ... Not... enough... sleep. xD Ok, back to the topic ( ... )
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You can't understand it because you're looking at it from the wrong perspective. You're looking at it from Fei's point of view, in which case, as you said, it doesn't make sense. The whole point of the kiss Fei forced on Asami in NT was to realise there was nothing to hope for there. I like the way you describe it: that Fei looked purified as he walked away from Asami then. This made complete sense.
But.
VF is not about Fei Long. It's about Asami and Akihito. And so no, not even in what seems to be his very own novel, Fei is not allowed to be free from them. So we see him texting Akihito, and we see him thinking of Asami while having sex with someone else. That's because this is a VF novel, NOT a Fei Long novel. Everything has to remain about Asami and Akihito somehow, even if this means twisting the existing canon and murdering established characterisation ( ... )
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That is so true, but then again she did give us high loft, and you know who I blame? I blame the overwhelming AxA fans who bombarded her over the lack of AxA, over how much they hate Fei Long, everywhere, not just in the comms. This is the wrong crowd for Fei really. But on top of that she, too, is too much in love with AxA to want to sway from Aki cutting toe nails story (Jelly's words are brilliantly true), and lately I feel she has lost interest altogether.
ASfor even in his OWN novel, it was so fucking blatant with the version with Asami on the fucking cover. I mean that was such a big insult to Fei fans and deceiving as hell. I don't know how Libre got away with it. My respect for the company and the mangaka has become really low after that. It's just wrong.
Yeah, no, no way I'm competing with her O.O ! IT's more like the other way around XDD I wouldn't dare write YxF while you have a go at it. I don't even understand Yoh beyond intuitive level, you said so yourself ( ... )
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YOU DOO???? Can you translate the last part with Mikhail in detail? *gets on hands and knees to beg*
You know this is the part of Fei I hate so much. Hmm, actually that is the part of Fei that I love so much. Not because it's Asami, but because it shows that he's the kind of man that loves so intensely. I actually do have a feeling that both Yoh and Mikhail fell for him because of his unwillingness and inability to forget Asami because when he loves, he loves with everything he has. And especially for Mikhail, he probably wants to be on the receiving end of that love. It is a part of Fei that makes him as good as Yoh. Now, I want him to break free from Asami, but it should never be easy like in NT, or else it destroys everything that Fei Long ever was and makes him weak and shallow. And he has been shallow and soft lately in NT due to Aki. I hated that about Fei. But that's me ( ... )
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