try to hold on
I hate it when there's something I want to say really bad, but can't find the right words or the courage to thoroughly execute them. I wish my, no, I wish life wasn't always constantly changing. I like moving, staying in motion, keeping life as fresh as possible. However, I would like to settle, at least for a short amount of time, in a place that strikes as sweet to the senses. I don't know...I've been feeling unwanted a lot lately. This year, more than anything, I learned that getting to know people, making friends is beautiful experience, but also a horrible, painful, and exhausting experience. Of course we naturally care about ourselves more than anyone or anything, but when we feel the need, the burning desire to befriend something, the "self" becomes a burden, only getting in the way. Why do we keep ourselves from being happy? Questions, questions, ugh, question make me bluuuuue. Darlin' tell me something good.
Well, pondering aside, I bought groceries for the first time since I returned from LA. Isn't that gross? I've been eating fast food and mexican food from my former job all this time. I'm becoming vegetarian too. I've been slipping into the state of mind for some months now. I'm still working on it, but I really have no desire to eat meat on my own accord anymore, mainly because I don't know how to cook it, aside from hamburgers. It's a nice way to save money too.
I'm going to Chicago on Wednesday with Rosie, Mandie, and Scott. We plan on being there for a month and then coming back here before Xmas. Come new years, I should be heading to Florida (finally right?). With whom I'll be going with is up in the air right now though, but an adventure is an adventure.
Well, pondering aside, I bought groceries for the first time since I returned from LA. Isn't that gross? I've been eating fast food and mexican food from my former job all this time. I'm becoming vegetarian too. I've been slipping into the state of mind for some months now. I'm still working on it, but I really have no desire to eat meat on my own accord anymore, mainly because I don't know how to cook it, aside from hamburgers. It's a nice way to save money too.
I'm going to Chicago on Wednesday with Rosie, Mandie, and Scott. We plan on being there for a month and then coming back here before Xmas. Come new years, I should be heading to Florida (finally right?). With whom I'll be going with is up in the air right now though, but an adventure is an adventure.