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Im alone now and I am scared what I might do Im so confused and afraid rightnow what have I done what is going to happen it feels like it really is the end I never thought it would happen I feel like Ive lost everything now and worse i made her upset i cant do anything right anymore and I think shes not talking to me i never thought it would come to this Everything I thought was wrong its all falling apart someone please save me Im falling into a dark place and I dont know whats gonna happen if i go under Ive never felt this lost confused or irrational in my life i dont know if im going to make it through this Im falling apart in front of my own eyes and Im helpless to stopit im shaking like a rope bridge in a hurricane I can barely breath my heart is beating through my chest im crying out every drop of water in my body i dont know what to do i want to run to her still but now shes really not there shes not mine to run to anymore she was the only person I could run to i thought it was special what we had i thought in the end it would last but i dont know that anymore I love her I dont know what to do now this hurts more than I thought I dont know what im gonna do if this keeps up like this I have nothing to make me feel better now no hope for the future why bother if im just gonna spend my life feeling like this because if I dont feel better soon I dont think i want to go on anymore this hurts too much I hate myself please someone help im slipping I love her why dont i feel better now I just dont know if I can cope with this i want to die I feel like I already am dead. maybe I am. Maybe this will kill me. what have I done what have I done why wont she at least let me know shes allright I cant write more because theres nothing left to say but i cant stop I love her im spinning im falling apart I just want to hold her again please please please let this all blow over .