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please god even if she doesnt love me anymore I need someone to talk to and shes the only one i can talk to about this stuff she promised me shed always bethere if I needed her like this but nowI do I really really do and shes not there and its all my own fault I need to talk to her or im gonna really go off the deep end im teetering on the brink of bad things please god give me strength and please let her call me or something I feel awful asking her even i know shes prolly having fun but I cant handle this alone anymore I love her so much but I need her now because Im falling apart I need her to be there for me like she promised she would be but shes not and i dont know how long i can hold out