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ohmy god I cannot believe this is happening I tried to not look at her profile on facebook but i did I feel like crying why do words make me feel like this now shes like depressed or so says her away message oh god what have I done. I cant believe I just saw that on there. Dating random play relationships I still love her so much and despite the fact that im surrounded by people I am crying and I dont care anymore I love her I love her I love her Im pushing her away every day The one chance I get in life to be happy and I fucked it up somehow everything was so perfect I loved her she loved me but I did something now its over shes looking for someone new Im trying to hold on I cant believe shes actually doing it. I knew she would im not good enough for her but I couldnt believe it I dont want to I just want to hold her Ive never felt this bad in my life. I love her. I want to die. Now I feel so bad because of what shes doing but I feel worse for what I may have done to her. Im never going to get her back now. What did I do wrong. I dont know I wish I could go back in time and fix it Id stay home summers not go places I need her now and I did something to fuck it up now I dont have her why why why Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck Im so sad I dont know what to do im helpless I cant hold her i cant talk to her I cant do anything I have nothing and nobody I love alicia so much what did I do to fuck this up?