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we sat on my floor. he finally got away from packing and family and seeing friends and found an hour and a half to see me. i tried not to be bitter or jealous about the fact that i was squished in at 10:30 at night; there wasn't any point to feeling that way, it would've just made things bad.
we talked about random things- nothing deep, nothing close to my heart. eventually he came and sat down on the floor next to me. kissing has never felt so bittersweet.
at midnight he had to leave. i couldn't stop a few tears from leaking out, despite my best efforts. we hugged tight and promised to be together over winter break- we each have a month of vacation; twice as long as this relationship was. he kept referring to him and me as "us".
i walked him to his car, he told me he loved me. i had a minor panic attack in my head, and was kind of like "wait, what did you just say?", which is totally an ungracious response. he repeated himself, and then after breathing deep, i said "i love you." i don't know whether i meant it romantically or platonically- but i said it, he can interpret it whichever way he wants. a few seconds later i was like "i can't believe you just said that..." and we agreed that it was a little wierd.
i don't know if i want to be with anyone else right now, we'll see what happens when i get to san diego. but if nothing else, winter break holds promise.
we talked about random things- nothing deep, nothing close to my heart. eventually he came and sat down on the floor next to me. kissing has never felt so bittersweet.
at midnight he had to leave. i couldn't stop a few tears from leaking out, despite my best efforts. we hugged tight and promised to be together over winter break- we each have a month of vacation; twice as long as this relationship was. he kept referring to him and me as "us".
i walked him to his car, he told me he loved me. i had a minor panic attack in my head, and was kind of like "wait, what did you just say?", which is totally an ungracious response. he repeated himself, and then after breathing deep, i said "i love you." i don't know whether i meant it romantically or platonically- but i said it, he can interpret it whichever way he wants. a few seconds later i was like "i can't believe you just said that..." and we agreed that it was a little wierd.
i don't know if i want to be with anyone else right now, we'll see what happens when i get to san diego. but if nothing else, winter break holds promise.