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i just had a profound realization. well, maybe not profound. i was just sitting on my couch in my pajamas, eating ice cream and watching cartoons. i live like a damn child! all this crap about becoming so mature, i am the furthest thing from it. i have not changed a bit since i was 5 years old, ugh. oh christ i just realized my apartment is covered in pink, and i have a big white bunny. nothing has changed. i'm irresponsible, in fact, just yesterday i skipped two classes, came home and slept for 5 hours. i'm lazy, i don't even work. i have no idea where i'm going to work in the summer to save money IF i get accepted to study abroad. i probably wont. god damn it. and i don't even really care to be honest. i so wish i was motivated enough to care, but i hate my english classes gooooooooooooooooooooood. i hate english! and the classes i am taking right now is only english and spanish. i love the spanish classes, though i'm not doing great in my 314 class. i realized that i shouldn't beat myself up over that because i skipped a lot of classes going from 207 to 314. although i didn't think i would do well when i had susana for 154 and i did pretty well in that, so who knows. she's a strange one. she told me that i'm smart, i have no idea why she would say that. and i don't mean that in a low confidence way, i just never did any work in 154 and not really much this far in the semester, i do so horrible on my tests. i think she was just trying to be nice. she reminds me so much of that spanish woman in 'pan's labryinth.' i think they look a lot alike. ok, back to cartoons =\