confused and frustrated
sorry i haven't updated my journal in a while. well, where to start... i've been doing a little better financially and emotionally. i found a job at dave and busters downtown. i started it about a month ago. i'm a captain. basically, i have to greet the guest when they come in, and say good bye when they leave. i'm also in charge of the floor for security and house policies. so, that has helped me a bit. my checks have averaged 356 every two weeks. and this month, i also have three tours scheduled. all of which are paying me between 20 and 35 an hour. so, finally, i'll be able to pay back some of the people that have borrowed me money. and maybe, even go shopping. i don't even know what that is anymore.
lately, things are looking better. but last night, after i got home, i saw a note on my dining room table. it was from cale, my roomate. he basically got pissed and wants to talk to me because i took two cigarettes out of his pack, thinking it wouldn't be a problem. right now, i barely have enough money to pay rent. so, i don't have any cigarettes of my own. i didn't think he would get so angry. anyway, i don't know what to do about that situation. i'm also trying to sell my suits so that i can make a bit more money for myself. and so, maybe i can be able to pay cale back the money i still owe him for the security deposit, we paid in october. i also decided that i;m going to join the police academy. it's time i decide what i want to do in my life. hopefully, that's the right move for me. i don't even know. anyway, i guess i'll find out sooner or later what's to come. i'm just pissed that i have to be completely broke for the time being. i can't freaking stand it. i don't have the time nor the money to go out with my friends, or with my boys. things just suck right about now. but, i'm still with nick. i can't see him very often cause of our separate schedules. that really sucks. but, we're doing great other than that. hope everyone's doing great. i'll try and post something more often.
time to be with my baby a bit.
muah! good night.
lately, things are looking better. but last night, after i got home, i saw a note on my dining room table. it was from cale, my roomate. he basically got pissed and wants to talk to me because i took two cigarettes out of his pack, thinking it wouldn't be a problem. right now, i barely have enough money to pay rent. so, i don't have any cigarettes of my own. i didn't think he would get so angry. anyway, i don't know what to do about that situation. i'm also trying to sell my suits so that i can make a bit more money for myself. and so, maybe i can be able to pay cale back the money i still owe him for the security deposit, we paid in october. i also decided that i;m going to join the police academy. it's time i decide what i want to do in my life. hopefully, that's the right move for me. i don't even know. anyway, i guess i'll find out sooner or later what's to come. i'm just pissed that i have to be completely broke for the time being. i can't freaking stand it. i don't have the time nor the money to go out with my friends, or with my boys. things just suck right about now. but, i'm still with nick. i can't see him very often cause of our separate schedules. that really sucks. but, we're doing great other than that. hope everyone's doing great. i'll try and post something more often.
time to be with my baby a bit.
muah! good night.