ughhhhh
And here we go again. Suicidal thoughts are floating around in my head, and why you ask? because I think Ive chosen a career path that I hate. The older I get the worse my anxiety is getting and I cant stand to be around people. I'm a hairstylist, I'm around people on a daily basis, and I just hate them. They make me feel anxious, they make me feel like I'm a fat ugly blob that cant do anything with his life. Like I dont know what to do anymore. I wanna quit my job and crawl in a hole and die. Right now, all I want it to fucking like Sleep for 6 months and not wake up once, and hope that when I do wake up, everything is different. But it wont be. nothing is going to change. everything is always going to be the same. I'm gonna be the one in the family to never amount to anything. My cousin has a great job and a loving bf of 2 years and they have their own place, my other cousin has a good job, a house, a baby, a gf. what the fuck do I have. a crappy fucking 9 dollar an hour job. a beat up car, and I live at home with my mom. and I'm almost 28. Real fucking super. Idk what the fuck to do. I cant live like this.