fuck
I feel dead. I feel lifeless. Im miserable these days and I feel like I cant do anything about it. I cant even tell you the last time I had a real smile on my face. I hate feeling so fucked up in the head. I shouldn't feel like this. Relationships come and go, and with each one I feel more and more worthless, because I'm the one who gets left and cheated on each time. My moms bf told me to get the fuck over it, YOU DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO HAVE YOUR HEART BROKEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN. My mom said you need to get out and get over yourself, I said get over what, she was like your in a depression or something, I said NO SHIT, I'll stop being depressed when I'm dead. This morning I broke down and cried again. I cut myself, and it solves nothing, but it helps me feel better. IDK what to fucking do. I cant type anymore........