Don't Know What To Do Right Now
i wish i could find some way to let everything out without being completely drawn out and miserable. i'll leave that for everyone who really needs that and deserves that. my last entry was well...yeah, angry and i guess i really dont know how to explain it real well i guess im just stuck in the middle of mostly everything thats going down right now. i admit, theres really nothing wrong with my personal life at all, im overworking myself and im always tired and stress, but it really brings me down to see all those i love go down in a downwards spiral of pain and misery, especially when its with each other. it is my duty to help them in whatever ways known to me, and i think sometimes i accomplish that, but its just really sad to see everyone like this. joseph is really getting on my nerves i always feel like the stupid sophomore whos on everyones nerves. i swear i wont do stage managing anymore, because its too much of a hassle and w/e, i cant complain about it anymore. i cant wait to leave for boston, maybe i can chill for a while and get all the stress out. maybe some sleep too. to all of those who are in turmoil now, i dont want you to think im trying to get attention. i dont want any, and i dont need any. i need to see a good movie, haha, i havent watched a really good one in a while. all the fucking good movies are all limited release. fuckin bell tower. well, i hope someday, maybe not too far away, we will be happy and we will all be together again. i know that sounds sickeningly optismistic, but hey, you know me. i might be a little different from now on, but nothing noticeable. um, i guess i dont really expect any comments or anything, but if you do read this, please post a comment, i kind of need it now. thanks. i still meant everything i said in the last entry, about how we're all overreacting teenagers and whatnot, but maybe im just gonna try to make it better. bye, jonas.