It's only taken 6 years but at last my behaviour has caught up with me. There is nothing nice about being carried into an ambulance at 2 in the morning because your body has literally given up. "this close to death" were the actual words used by the first consultant I saw after spending two days in ICU. I can believe it. Fuck it, when my Dad told ( Read more... )

"After that I felt a little sad.

The next day I felt a little sadder. I felt that something important was finally over, like a door closed forever behind me. That's only to be expected, since I loved her. I suppose I was still clinging to the hope that we might get back together some day. She'd been a huge part of my youth, so it was only natural ( Read more... )

The dream I detailed in my last post can be summed up with rhyme.

The Dream

An arm around your frozen waist
your lips a long forgotten taste

Your only sound a quiet sigh
not even strength to tell a lie

An orange light through an open blind
an empty room is all I find

An open door your chance to flee
and left inside
is half
of me.

"I must be in love with this woman ( Read more... )

When it's a really warm night, with the promise of a sunny day ahead, I'll make my way to the park, where I'll make my last call.

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KC's funeral today.

I doubt I will ever meet such a loving, kind person again.

I wish I'd spent more time with him. Just one more day. All the times he phoned, asking if I wanted to hang out and I told him I was busy. You have no idea how much I regret that now.

Meeting his mum was the hardest part. Leave a comment

Goodbye good friend. I hope our paths cross again, someday, somewhere, R.I.P ( Read more... )

1000 days. Sometimes it feels like yesterday.

See that rag we all have? I'm going to have lost it by the end of the month - guaranteed.

I had a strange dream. I'm just going to post it so that I can remember it or reflect on it much later on...or be weirded out by it later on.

The police were out to get me because of the shape of my teeth (because they're not straight?:S...who knows?). This dream was based around my area and people were randomly helping me out. Then, the police ( Read more... )