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I understand that when one becomes stressed... its easy to tune out everybody you love. Is it good? NO. If everybody did that then our lovely world would be such a beautiful place to live. NOT.
One thing i hate is wondering. hanging from the end of a shoestring isnt very reassuring to those that you are cared about. I may be selfish in saying this, but i really value effective communication regardless of hte circumstances. I want to be here for h, but she has to do her part too. Im all ears, but i feel that she doesnt care that I WANT to listen to her! I WANT to reassure her that things can get better, arent all that bad etc etc. This is the first time shes done this to me, but im going to have to accept it for the way it is. I want to be here for her through thick and thin; not just the thin part.
Looks like early may is the big step. I dont care where we live, but id like it to be near 94. As long as h n i are together it doesnt matter where we are living. I just want a first level with a door facing outside. Im not into the securiyt door type of thing that make you feel like you are living in a hotel... i wish we could make our move asap, but May is the most viable for both of us considering our living situations.
Getting ready to go t o work again... i know they know now about my complaint and mike will be there but im going to keep to myself and bust my ass quietly rather than be buddy-buddy to him (like everybody else tries to do) Im really thinking of giving that job up; it isnt worth it. If i were working 3 days, itd be ok but for two? Not. there ARE other places i can go to that would at least appreciate that im the hardest worker they have on their payroll. Nice how the only shooting star i recieved was from danielle and not mike. Shit, no ones ever recieved one from mike cuz he doesnt give them out. Hes more concerened about HIS bonus and impressing corporate than he is paying his employees what they rae entitled to. He fucks up on payroll all the time and never justifies WHY... so many employees simmply make the correction providing they identify his mistake to him with the paycheck stub. Im certain that many times these mistakes go unnoticed which merely validates mikes motives. I told demaki if i were a union steward, id be in his SHIT. Comp. should pay both thre difference AND a 50% of t he difference... to prevent future occurrances. i have to be full-time to be a steward... even if i were it wouldnt be worth it financially. Dwayne in core 10 told me he only gets his hourly rate while conducting arbitration.
Logans bday party tom at 1. Need to get a gift but jen said to give him $$$ instead. Hoping H wants to go, but if not no big deal. Im only going to be there an hour. Shes ready to pop anytime. I wish she would carry the tradition of our family; as this is the first time any of my family wasnt born at oakwood dearborn but its up to her... shes choosing Wyandotte.
3 1/2 weeks to vegas!!! YIPEEEEE!! There is sooo much to do there being togehter for 6 days with the girl i want to be with forever will surely be an enlightening experience.
Talked to mike on the phone for about an hour last night.Broke up w/ leslie and hes considering retiring down in CR... in a few years! Cost of living down there is sooo cheap but the countries a dump. On my tour to the arenal volcano, i saw most of the outshirts of s.j. c.r. and it wasnt really appealing... scenery is BEAUTIFUL, however. Id never live there or even go back there for that matter but he seems to like it there which is his perogative. told him id visit him from time-to-time. (not sure if that will come to fruition or not)
One thing i hate is wondering. hanging from the end of a shoestring isnt very reassuring to those that you are cared about. I may be selfish in saying this, but i really value effective communication regardless of hte circumstances. I want to be here for h, but she has to do her part too. Im all ears, but i feel that she doesnt care that I WANT to listen to her! I WANT to reassure her that things can get better, arent all that bad etc etc. This is the first time shes done this to me, but im going to have to accept it for the way it is. I want to be here for her through thick and thin; not just the thin part.
Looks like early may is the big step. I dont care where we live, but id like it to be near 94. As long as h n i are together it doesnt matter where we are living. I just want a first level with a door facing outside. Im not into the securiyt door type of thing that make you feel like you are living in a hotel... i wish we could make our move asap, but May is the most viable for both of us considering our living situations.
Getting ready to go t o work again... i know they know now about my complaint and mike will be there but im going to keep to myself and bust my ass quietly rather than be buddy-buddy to him (like everybody else tries to do) Im really thinking of giving that job up; it isnt worth it. If i were working 3 days, itd be ok but for two? Not. there ARE other places i can go to that would at least appreciate that im the hardest worker they have on their payroll. Nice how the only shooting star i recieved was from danielle and not mike. Shit, no ones ever recieved one from mike cuz he doesnt give them out. Hes more concerened about HIS bonus and impressing corporate than he is paying his employees what they rae entitled to. He fucks up on payroll all the time and never justifies WHY... so many employees simmply make the correction providing they identify his mistake to him with the paycheck stub. Im certain that many times these mistakes go unnoticed which merely validates mikes motives. I told demaki if i were a union steward, id be in his SHIT. Comp. should pay both thre difference AND a 50% of t he difference... to prevent future occurrances. i have to be full-time to be a steward... even if i were it wouldnt be worth it financially. Dwayne in core 10 told me he only gets his hourly rate while conducting arbitration.
Logans bday party tom at 1. Need to get a gift but jen said to give him $$$ instead. Hoping H wants to go, but if not no big deal. Im only going to be there an hour. Shes ready to pop anytime. I wish she would carry the tradition of our family; as this is the first time any of my family wasnt born at oakwood dearborn but its up to her... shes choosing Wyandotte.
3 1/2 weeks to vegas!!! YIPEEEEE!! There is sooo much to do there being togehter for 6 days with the girl i want to be with forever will surely be an enlightening experience.
Talked to mike on the phone for about an hour last night.Broke up w/ leslie and hes considering retiring down in CR... in a few years! Cost of living down there is sooo cheap but the countries a dump. On my tour to the arenal volcano, i saw most of the outshirts of s.j. c.r. and it wasnt really appealing... scenery is BEAUTIFUL, however. Id never live there or even go back there for that matter but he seems to like it there which is his perogative. told him id visit him from time-to-time. (not sure if that will come to fruition or not)