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Today was a hectic day. started w/ me getting to campus and joining the flock of hawks for a parking space. Went to pfisters class that was 120 deg yet again, after that was my dis law class that met at pierce. Wasnt bad though, cuz one of the members had completed 90% of the questionairre b4 we met. I measured about 10 different measurments and logged them. Report likely due on tues. Uncomfortable being the only white person in the group but it went alright. I deal with being the only white person at work; im used to it.
H texted me while there and said she was looking for a space. I wanted to see her SO bad even if it were for 2 minutes. Being on campus knowing that we couldnt see eachother for a rational amount of time added to the frustration that i eventually took out on her later that day. I 'snapped' on her cuz i thought she was implying that i was ignoring her calls and walking/talking w/ another girl. I luv h w/ all my heart and was disgusted at tat assertion, so i overreacted AGAIN. Not only was i frustrated that i couldnt see her, but at the fact that she was leading me to believe that i was w/ someone else? Well, come to find out she was being sarcastic.
Presentation for bedu class was good. ppt slides were f'ed up. I asked tara in 2 sep emails to send me a copy of the ppt slides.. obviously it takes mor energy than she was willing to spend cuz i didnt get them until class today at the beginning of class. I had to walk over to where she was sitting... i know theres a stigma w/ blacks but this merely validates that common misconception that i hold. Oh well... got through it. Im getting more relaxed now w/ presentations than ive ever been.
After class went to library and got a severe dizzy spell out of nowhere that felt so strange. emailed Goodman for a ? out of the assign. them met up w/ greg. went to chilis nd talked to him for a couople of hours. Hes looking for a job n is getting frustrated... expressed interest in going to vegas which would be nice.. more the merrier but i think it would be nice if it were just h n i, cuz Vegas is a couples destination. Said he would spend most of the time alone. Id feel bad if he did go by himself.
H's aunt funeral is tomorrow. This a PRIME opportunity to meet her fam. unfortunately, ill feel uncomfortable around a bunch of ppl i dont know who are mourning and afraid i wouldnt know how to react to these potential family members. I want to make a decent 1st imp. but not at a funeral. H understands which is really encouraging, I think it would be better if she were w/ ppl she knows rather than explaining who i am, how we met etc etc Im sure there will be future fam gatherings in the future.
Im off to bed. as always, I miss h... i hope she takes everyhing alright tom am.
H texted me while there and said she was looking for a space. I wanted to see her SO bad even if it were for 2 minutes. Being on campus knowing that we couldnt see eachother for a rational amount of time added to the frustration that i eventually took out on her later that day. I 'snapped' on her cuz i thought she was implying that i was ignoring her calls and walking/talking w/ another girl. I luv h w/ all my heart and was disgusted at tat assertion, so i overreacted AGAIN. Not only was i frustrated that i couldnt see her, but at the fact that she was leading me to believe that i was w/ someone else? Well, come to find out she was being sarcastic.
Presentation for bedu class was good. ppt slides were f'ed up. I asked tara in 2 sep emails to send me a copy of the ppt slides.. obviously it takes mor energy than she was willing to spend cuz i didnt get them until class today at the beginning of class. I had to walk over to where she was sitting... i know theres a stigma w/ blacks but this merely validates that common misconception that i hold. Oh well... got through it. Im getting more relaxed now w/ presentations than ive ever been.
After class went to library and got a severe dizzy spell out of nowhere that felt so strange. emailed Goodman for a ? out of the assign. them met up w/ greg. went to chilis nd talked to him for a couople of hours. Hes looking for a job n is getting frustrated... expressed interest in going to vegas which would be nice.. more the merrier but i think it would be nice if it were just h n i, cuz Vegas is a couples destination. Said he would spend most of the time alone. Id feel bad if he did go by himself.
H's aunt funeral is tomorrow. This a PRIME opportunity to meet her fam. unfortunately, ill feel uncomfortable around a bunch of ppl i dont know who are mourning and afraid i wouldnt know how to react to these potential family members. I want to make a decent 1st imp. but not at a funeral. H understands which is really encouraging, I think it would be better if she were w/ ppl she knows rather than explaining who i am, how we met etc etc Im sure there will be future fam gatherings in the future.
Im off to bed. as always, I miss h... i hope she takes everyhing alright tom am.