conversation I think I should save

[joeenrique]

I don't want to save this, I don't want to have to be doing this, I don't want to be feeling like this, but part of having this is being honest with myself to try to get through it

queefymcqueef: see we just never like those who like us
CDR77: i dunno just don't see it
CDR77: ya
queefymcqueef: ah
queefymcqueef: think its because we aren't over the ex's still?
queefymcqueef: i can hardly stand to think im still not over it
CDR77: could be part of it
queefymcqueef: but, thats just...not fair?
CDR77: no no it isn't
queefymcqueef: but its probably true isn't it?
CDR77: that we aren't over our ex's?
queefymcqueef: yea
queefymcqueef: and thats most of the problem?
CDR77: i'm sure that doesn't help
CDR77: like me...
queefymcqueef: and that another mr or miss right just hasn't come walzing through
CDR77: i think it's a combo of that and afraid of being hurt again
queefymcqueef: i think mine is afraid of being bored again
CDR77: are you bored now?
queefymcqueef: i mean bored in a relationship
CDR77: no i know
queefymcqueef: and yea, im bored now, but being bored with someone is worse
queefymcqueef: i mean i love my freinds
CDR77: ya i guess that's true
queefymcqueef: but i feel like im not that important to anyone
queefymcqueef: and i feel like in the end very few people are that important to me
queefymcqueef: and i feel easily replaceable
queefymcqueef: i hate this time of year, i get so depressed
CDR77: ya
queefymcqueef: like, i hate that thats how i feel, its so pathetic
queefymcqueef: and its so true and i feel 10 times worse than that sounds like i feel

queefymcqueef: i mean i know i'll be happy again
queefymcqueef: i just, im havin a harder and harder time getting through the days, you know?
CDR77: ya it's not easy
queefymcqueef: ughhh and like i just realized with like feeling like i dont love people so much
queefymcqueef: im withdrawing myself subconciously
queefymcqueef: and thats soooo bad